Black meet White

2011-01-04T16:18:00.003+08:00

MY NEW YEAR RESOLUTION(s)...
(Will keep updating it)

Say more SORRY and THANK YOU...

2011-01-02T22:09:00.004+08:00

Day 2 of 2011...
Shu Shi Yuan You Hui at TG...

(DISCLAIMER:TODAY POST WILL BE QUITE RUDE,SORRY ABOUT IT...

&
THIS POST IS ONLY MY PERSONAL EXPERIENCE AND THINKING...)

this post will be quite long and somebody is going to complain again...
anyways,i will try to shorten it...
today was SUPPOSED to be a great and fun day...
but...
things don't even gone well as soon as i reached there...

firstly,i don't mind having to work in the kitchen but aren't all of us supposed to help when time is what we lacked.?.
then what are some of the TZs chatting with other stalls peoples...
trying to da hao guan xi.?.
and for what then.?.
i just can't stand them for only asking others to do then they have coffee.?.
maybe they have done a lot before i arrive,but why their mindset so stiff.?.

secondly,when i'm cutting the food for the satay...
ren de peoples want to plug a multi plugs but the socket is so far and high up...
so they ask a small kid to climb up the table and plug it...
immediately,i stop them as the table is really unstable...
then another person just insisted that it can be done...
i was like crazy...
if not for the little boy safety,i won't even open my mouth...
so i want to ask that if they are rushing to cook the food,should they even not consider about the safety then.?.
and the person who insisted,even reply me in a harsh tone with a glare...
i was like hao xin mei hao bao...
forget it,i did my part...
and if they don't want to head my advice then so be it...

thirdly,the stall beside us was like eating all the space we have...
oh ya,it's the same person who insisted...
she thought that the one who have a louder win is it.?.
can't she just spare us some space.?.
is also not like she have so many dishes as compared to us...
just can't stand her...

fourthly,after the packing for satay...
the whole table was covered with oil and somemore coffee was spilled too...
can't they just drink their coffee somewhere else.?.
and somemore no one even bother to wipe the table clean...
the table cloth was prepared by so many of us and why can't they just spare some thoughts.?.
the cloth was actually plastic cloth which after came in contact with oil,it's very difficult to get rid of the oil...
so,next time please set up more tables to use for preparing food...

fifthly,it isn't like the stall set up with bamboo sticks could handle that much weight...
so why does the TZs keep asking me to hang things up on it.?.
be it paper bags,plastic bags and even coffee powder...
like exactly what they want to do.?.
why not ask them to design their own so it would fit their liking.?.
i'm not saying that i don't want to help and do the banner but they keep changing so what are we suppose to do then.?.
and we also can't reject them so as to respect them...

sixthly,everything was very disorganised...
starting from the allocation of shift for the food to be serve...
afternoon shift peoples starts to bring in their food in the morning and vice versa then...
and also some of the dishes was not even available for it's time slot...
next will be the area set up for the stall was very difficult to enter and exit...
especially,i have to pass another stall to enter and exit which the stall always have so many peoples crowding around...
so it's very time constraining to enter and exit the kitchen...

lastly,yu shu zhe bu da...
there was like so many peoples in the stall...
many peoples also equal to many comments...
so who shall i listen to.?.
although the speed for packing the food is fast but the production of it is slow...
so many peoples cramp in such a small area...

Above all,is my ranting for the day...
haiz,finally said my piece...

xxxxxxxxxENDxxxxxxxxx

Actually,not all way that bad lar...
the food was quite nice...
and Clarabelle even played with me too...
hahas...
ke ai de xiao princess arhz...
my daughter was also there too...
we went around eating,buying,selling and even have fun...

so sorry about my mood change just now...
wasn't feeling that well...
maybe it's because of not sleeping,the after effect of taking the burger and feeling abit sick...
i'm okays,so don't worry...

TO:Lan xin...
i hope that you won't be that stressed cause more haste means less speed...
sometimes,you need to relaxs...
because to clear your objective,you need to have a clear and awake mind...

and don't hate yourself,cause you are being loved...
as you are not the only one that is fake...
we each have our sides to cater to different situation,time and place...
so we tend to change according...
there is nothing wrong with that...

next,diet is a no no for you...
a healthy diet,yes...
but a slim down diet is equal to a big no...
you look perfect as how you look now...

no need to have a New Year Resolution(s)...
just be happy and smiles everyday can already...
isn't that the best resolution(s).?.
you don't always need to be a "guy",you can be the true you can already...
and you need to smiles more too...

anyways,i guess you know that i won't do anything to that guy ba...
i aren't that type of person to do reckless thing...
and you have known me for that long to know what type of person i'm right.?.
so i no need to explain this already right.?.
if you want,i can tell you again arhz...
AND I SERIOUSLY DON'T WANT TO ONLY BE YOUR ENTERTAINER JUST LIKE HIM...
so if you got any other things,you could tell me...
i won't mind de,okays.?.

TO:Daughter (Sun)...
no need to keep thanking me,you have your other friends that need you to accompany too mah...
like your golden triangle (jialin and shuqi),jasmine and lang song group peoples...
i understand de lar...
okays,then this time i will take the word awesome so i won't deny...

i will seriously take care of myself but on one condition(s)...
hahas,you also must do the same...
but i'm like seriously falling sick now already...
i will try to be more cheerful so it won't affect your mood too...
my nagging will all be written at my blog or i could even text you then...
and what i'm curious that the both of us don't understand what on each other mind...
if you want,you could tagged a sun at my tag box...
so the both of us could juat send a text on what our mind is thinking...

what you think.?.

2010-12-31T23:59:00.006+08:00

BYE BYE 2010...
NOW IT'S 2011...

2010 lasted for 1 year which is equal to 12 months adding up to a 52 weeks converting into 365 days multiplied into 8760 hours changing into 525600 minutes and finally into 31536000 seconds…
It isn’t 2011 until the very last ten seconds, so don’t start counting down until then…
Because I wished to capture the very last moment of 2010 in my precious memory…
2010 marks the perfect 10 of this year and the next whole will be year 2100 or year 2110…
However, when 2011 come it will shows that the perfect 10 have already added a 1 to it adding up to an 11…
And this means that I have will have to add another task up my list and that is to be a better me…
In 2010, many things have happened…
Some was good and definitely there is the bad one too…
I have to thanks a lot of peoples that have induce me the knowledge they have learned…
Be it good or bad, you have my thanks…

To:My Parents,
I have to be very thankful to my parents…
As a pre-matured baby, it wasn’t even easy to bring compare to normal baby…
Born with a not so completed body but with a complete family is what I’m thankful for…
The time, money, effort, cares and concern wasn’t what I could feel when I was that little…
I have to be in and out of the hospital for a long period of time…
And have any one of your been in an incubator before.?.
Well, I have and I even need to be fed with special milk powder which is very costly…
The thing is that I have to gain back the hope my parents have in me…
As I have shattered their hope on twice occasion…
One was the 2004 PSLE (Primary Six Leaving Examination), which I didn’t manage to be in the express stream…
The other was in January 2010 which was “O” level, which I did badly for it…
I shouldn’t have say that I have let them down cause that means that I have fail in bring myself back up…
I will prove myself in the upcoming 2011, cause which parents don’t wished for the best for their children.?.
Thanks to them that I have a blissful life through this 18 years of life and I can only be very thankful…

To:My Brothers (Clive & Desmond),
Thanks to them for tolerating my anger, ignorance and my selfishness…
Although we bicker a lot and quarrel a lot but we still manage to revert back to our normal self…
Thanks to them for always been close after the quarrel…

To:My Nu er/Daughter (Lan xin),
In the year 2010, I’m very blessed to have a daughter…
Hahas, although at first it was a mistake but now we seem close…
Sometimes, I just have the feeling that I’m irritating you…
It just seems that you have a lot of things to do and I just come in at the wrong time…
And you just need to let go of yourself and let the inner you shine, it doesn’t matter if it is something good or bad…
You don’t have to always put up that lovely smile of yours to please others…
Just be yourself…
If you need a listening ear to hear you rant or to vent your anger, I will always be there…
Don’t worry about me spending the money, its okays de...
Thanks to you that this year was as colourful and bright as the rainbow or not even more…

To:Sandra,
Hey, don’t keep saying that when I was young I was always hiding behind your back okays.?.
Because now I’m able to loudly say that I will not be following behind your back already…
It doesn’t matter that how long we have been friend…
I would like to say that you are the one whom will always be my friend forever…

To:Jeslyn,
Actually we have known each other for some time already…
But this year is really the year that I really know you…
At first, your impression to me was the girls that always follow lan xin…
It doesn’t matter where she is, cause you will also be there too…
But now, you are a kind and cheerful niece to me…
One that no matter how many times we tease you, you will still be smiling happily…
Hahas…
Hope you will always smile like that…

To:Eden,
Yo, yo, yo…
You to me are like a little brother to me…
You have been with me for quite a long amount of years piled up already…
And I seriously don’t want you to walk the wrong path…
Cause the path you are walking now is neither good nor bad…
Also I hope you could really consider which path to take then…
Stay healthy always and choose correctly…

To:Yin long & Melissa,
Finally, it’s the both of you…
Your must be wondering why I pair your up and not type as an individual…
Because I must remind myself that your mei ren is me…
Hahas…
To me, your are the real friends that I could really rely on…
The first time I let go of myself was when I met your…
Your could really keep my secrets for me…
And meeting your was like lighting up my life…
Basically, I hope that our friendship lasts and the both of you to be cheesy forever…

To:Kelly,
Gan mei arhz, although we didn’t talk a lot…
But I just have to say I know what you are going through…
Hope you attain the score you want for your O level…
And don’t be like me, continue to work hard then…
Strive hard to earn what you really want…

To:Gwyneth,
Xin hui arhz, although sometime I keep teasing you but all I hope is to know you more…
So hope that I can know you more and speak up to me okays.?.

To:CDBXB (Religious Tuition Class),
Being a tutor for about 8 months or so, I have learned a lot of things…
Thanks to those who give me a chance to experience something new…
I’m thankful for my co-jdys and my bys too…
And special thanks to zz, xtys and jqs…
They are the one who keep pushing me to hold on…
If not, I wouldn’t be even who I’m…

To:Zero + A2 (Yin long, Melissa, Derek, Ivy Koh) + (Li ling, Qing mu),
Well, what should I say about this group then.?.
Your are really a true cliques of mine…
One that I could loudly say that…
Your are the best out of the best…
Knowing your is something very precious to me…
It really seems like a miracle to me…
Thanks to your for creating a year of fun…
Cause I’m not alone anymore…

To:PB1004J (ITE College East [Simei])
PB1004J holds a lot of meaning to me…
Although it wasn’t a choice in my mind to be in…
But somehow or another I have landed and fit in…
It no longer was the path I pave but a path pave for me…
Thanks to your that school life was great full of joy and happiness…

To:Tiggatiggers (Jeremy, Daren, Matthew, Eugene, Anthony),
Musical peoples, we haven’t been meeting for a very very very long time already…
I hope that your are doing great and hope to meet up soon…
Thanks to your that my life was filled with music…

To:5A1’09 (Montfort Secondary School),
Class of titans, hope to gather everyone soon…

Thanks to those mention above, if I miss out you then my bad then…
Sorry…
Year 2010 definitely is something to look back on when years have passed…
As I will remember those that I have to give my thanks to…
Everyone, remember to enjoy the precious memories in 2010 and be ready to welcome 2011…
Have a HAPPY NEW YEAR up ahead…

SARANGHAEYO...

2010-10-06T21:00:00.002+08:00

AN END...

NOTE:PLEASE STOP MY OTHER PLAYER & LISTEN TO THIS...

I guess this is the very last step...
a step taken to forget you...
a beginning to walk out of your life...
although many steps were taken to have fallen for you...
but why.?.
why have these questions keep hitting me back.?.
WHY HAVE I FALLEN FOR YOU.?.
is it fate.?.
or it is just a joke that was use to prank me.?.
these questions keep probing me for the real answer that lies in me...

If it was meant to be a joke,then i will take this joke lightly and just laugh it off...
but i believe it's fate that brings us together...
however,we weren't meant for each other...
a creation of a piece of love song where the rhythm and melody are missing...
the rhythm and melody are you and me...
and the lyrics was filled with my love for you...
but missing the rhythm and melody,the song won't be complete...
an uncompleted song that was filled with lyrics but lacks the rhythm and melody plays no music...

As the different paths we have chosen have carry us further and further away...
each steps and the footprints we have taken and leave crushed my dream of completing the song with you...
we just take the steps to be closer to our dreams and i have always being following you (my dream) ...
i follow you while holding on to my dream,but you keep drifting away...
it wasn't easy to hold onto you but i have try...

I was sorry that i couldn't grab your hand tighter...
i should have (regrets) ...
it was when you were at your saddest times,that i was by your side...
at the times,i felt tears and the painful melody played by your heart...
at then,i should have at least convey my feelings to you...
but i was afraid to be a substitute...
a substitute playing someone else song,isn't me...

Anyways,now i guess i am not needed anymore...
someone have played a song in your heart...
and at least,i know you will always have someone to look after you and take care of everything for you...
therefore,seeing you happy will be enough to at least even mend my heart...
it doesn't matter if you are with me or far away,i will continue to wish you...
those words that i want to tell you,won't even reach you now...
the uncompleted song will vanish...

当你走在我的前面的时候,我多想紧紧的抱着你...
在那时刻,我多希望时间可以停止...
但当你走在我的背后的时候,我不想在我转身后,看见的是你和你男友在拥抱...
而从那时,那破碎的心已经无法再铺回去了...
就让这一切消失吧...

NOTE:PLEASE STOP MY OTHER PLAYER & LISTEN TO THIS...

I have a selfish request...
one that i'm so hating myself to even ask...
sooo...
COULD YOU DON'T EVER FORGET ME.?.
however,i will complete forget you...
everything about you will be cleared from the lyrics...
keep playing the music have hurt me...
a music without you is not what i want...
therefore i will cease the song...

My friends have again and yet again try to make me forget you...
the pain i felt was also felt by my friends...
they have ask me to let go time and again...
but i always believe you are always with me...
and it was really painful to keep loving you...
it doesn't mean no tears was shed,it mean that i'm okays...
and it don't mean that i'm not hurt because there wasn't scars...
it was tormenting me like a heart have been shattered once and again...
everytime,i saw something related to you just give me pain...
and i just have to pretend nothing have happened and just smiles...
it was hurting me time and again as i really don't wish to forget you...
and it won't be easy to forget you...
because in my life,you are like the core which i revolve around...
in short,my everything...
everything of you is so precious to me...
forgetting you means that my life is being marked by a question mark...
a big question mark that question myself...
but i guess i just have to give up and forget you...

However,musics have always been with me...
with you or without you,it have always been the same...
when i feel pain,i listen to music...
when i'm alone,i hear it's rhythm...
when i'm hurt,i could hear the melody...
then it will always soothes my pain...
the lyrics in it seems to always be communicating with me...
and now,blessed by the 9 angels and a star...
the 9 angels and a star have been with me as it showered me with a bright light to forget you...

CREDITS:
1)Youtube...
2)Respective company/Production Teams...
3)Artists...
4)Subber(s)(luvdbsk7,luvdbsk71,AngelDBSK,luvdbsk77,dbskdaisuki)...

...

Expressed through words (writing) , speaking (action) and musics...
LOVES...

2010-09-01T12:09:00.005+08:00

SPEECHLESS...
HMPH FRIENDS=.?.
Will You Be There For Me.?.

NOTE:PLEASE STOP MY OTHER PLAYER & LISTEN TO THIS...

Could your don't ever treat me as a fool...
cause your will never understand how i feel...
to live with only myself,its really painful...
i don't know how should i express myself but seriously i do take alots of things very seriously...
it's not i'm very sensitive but however i also do note of others too...
i'm not asking much but just at least let me know if i have been bothering your...
don't just keep everything inside...
if i'm a hindrance then i can excuse myself...
it isn't like i can definitely guess what are your thinking...
i know that sometimes i'm kind of rude,childish or even irritating...
but don't just keep it in...
since your said that we are friends,then open up more...
tell me if your have too...
cause...
GOOD FRIENDS DON'T TOLERATE EACH OTHER WHEN EVERYTHING DON'T SEEMS WELL...
if i'm in the wrong,just point out my mistakes...
if there is something i shouldn't have done,stop me...
if i have hurt your through my words or actions,then retaliate...
all in all,just say it out...
hopefully your will understand even just abit,i will be grateful...
even though,i can't express myself but i wish that your could...

NOTE:PLEASE STOP MY OTHER PLAYER & LISTEN TO THIS...

Will you only look at the one that waited for so long...
he have waited so long that the clock seems to stop...
it doesn't matter who are you with or what problems you are facing...
he have been standing in the shadow helping and quietly protecting you...
like a star in the darkness,it grows bright...
even it is a star,it is also afraid of the darkness...
so don't keep it in suspend,at least don't just used him for his light...
in this case,the light refer to his attention,care and concern...
even though he might be the perfect substitute but have you every consider what is he thinking or feeling...
it doesn't means that if he is alright and look okays,you should continue with it...
the star that lost it's brightness is ME...

NOTE:PLEASE STOP MY OTHER PLAYER & LISTEN TO THIS...

Goodbye...
it is used as word of parting and an initiate of a new beginning...
however how this word is used,depend on each situation...
it doesn't matter if i have to let you go because you have found someone better...
but i guess that i'm not that good for you...
maybe,it isn't me who is the one that says goodbye...
but it's YOU...
shouldn't let you go on the day we meet...
i should have just tell you how i feel...
you ask me how i feel about you.?.
but i didn't answer...
it felt regretful...
at the time,i should have just hold your hand tight and not let you go...
i miss another chance again...
blame it on the prideful self...
i just don't want you to go back...
i have told you once that...
even though you have no one,but there will always be me standing in front of you...
blocking away the pain and making you smiles...
hope you could not say goodbye to me...

NOTE:PLEASE STOP MY OTHER PLAYER & LISTEN TO THIS...

GIRL : Hey BOY,how are you recently.?.
BOY : Ohhh,i'm doing perfectly fine GIRL...
GIRL : That great to hear,cause recently i got attached...
BOY : *Sigh*
BOY : Really.?.thats good...
GIRL : So how about you.?.
BOY : I'm have been interested in a certain GIRL...
GIRL : Who,can tell me.?.
BOY : Erm,her name is Jojo...
GIRL : That quite an interesting name...
BOY : *Walks behind the GIRL*
GIRL : What are you doing.?.
BOY : Nothing...
GIRL : Okoks...
GIRL : *Smile sweetly*...
BOY : "But do you know that you are that GIRL.?."
GIRL : Did you just say something.?.
BOY : Nope,nothing at all...
GIRL : Then shall we go get some ice-cream.?.
BOY : Sure...
GIRL : Yeah...
BOY : "You will never know that Jojo was the GIRL i loved as i will only be looking at your shadow and you will never notice me..."

Jojo love ICE-CREAM...
and i love JOJO...
but who will love ME.?.

Only a FOOL will
LOOK and say
GOODBYE to
JOJO and quietly walk away...

Would i get a FRIEND.?.
or something better like a LISTENING EAR or even a SOULMATE.?.
Maybe even a GIRL.?.

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2nd - Youtube...
3rd - Uploaders...

C.PVG (R) signed out...

2010-08-31T00:00:00.000+08:00

TEASER:MUSIC NOTES PAINTED WITH LOVE IN MY LYRICS BOOK...

HAVE YOU EVER REACHED FOR SOMETHING SO FAR AWAY.?.

2010-08-30T20:23:00.004+08:00

Respond to 519208518 Part Double...

Well,i'm not casting you away...
and this have always been me...
this is the real me...
i'm not ignoring you but i have said before already...
there are just to many factors for me to consider...
and don't love me...
it won't be worth...
just let me go...
i guess the better way out is to just be friend...
there won't be a way to revert everything and return back to normal...
as it won't be the same anymore...

guess this goodbye...

2010-08-25T20:23:00.005+08:00

Respond to 519208518...

NOTE:PLEASE STOP MY OTHER PLAYER & LISTEN TO THIS...

A guy like me should not have attached you so closely to me...
it was something unexpected,it was a long story then...
at that time,i wasn't thinking much thus lots of misunderstandings occur...

First and foremost,i'm a lonely guy and at that time you stepped foot in my life...
at that time,it was like a wonderful beginning as i felt that all was not lost...
but,it don't turned out that way...

Secondly,it was something i have hidden for a long time...
somebody have already captured my heart...
their wasn't any other space left for anyone...

Thirdly,i have been busy all the time...
and that would leave me no time for you...
it wasn't my newly founded friends that escalated this...
but,it was i'm seriously busy with other stuffs...

Next,i really don't want to hurt you...
how am i suppose to tell i have no time for you.?.
and how i'm to say that i'm already deeply hurt by someone else.?.
i'm suppose to enter and leave without a sound but you wouldn't let me...
you kept me closer and closer...
and i fall deeper and deeper...
thinking that it was okays when it isn't...

Finally,don't blamed on my friends...
it wasn't their faults...
&...
i'm not having any fun at all...
have you not known me.?.
even if it hurts or its pain me...
i wouldn't even hush a single sound...
i'm just smiling for the sake of not letting my families and friends worry...
i'm just taking it lightly because that someone have already hurt me very badly...
what you want me to do.?.
and as for the links...
i'm just trying to leave quietly...
so just let me go then...

A lonely and emotional fools like myself fall for the words of her...
it wasn't something i could recover from...
i may never recover from it...
i was not throwing you away because of my new friends...
but i just want you to carry on with your life forgetting about me...
i'm not using you as a substitute but i really couldn't just continue wanting the care and concern...
it wasn't a right thing to do...
a quote from my friend (changing parts of it) - "Don't Fall For It For The Care And Concern"...

NOW I HAVE TOLD YOU EVERYTHING,COULD YOU ACCEPT IT.?.
TELL ME THEN...

Credits:
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2nd - Youtube...
3rd - Uploaders...

2010-08-24T01:01:00.003+08:00

LIGHT & DARKNESS

LvD...
its a term i used to describe how it hurt so deeply and badly...
it is just like i would never want to be in love or even loved others anymore...
it was like love was pouring down on everyone but not me...
everyone just seems to be playing a fool with me,it hurts everytime someone just let go...
and at the bottom line,i expect and know that you wouldn't...
but...
you eventually still did...
it pains me to the tears in which i was never ever be able to show...
bleeding was not a concern anymore as it wasn't just pain...
it was the feeling of emptiness,a space of void...

I would rather you not letting me know and quietly disappear from my life...
it was went i found out that i have already fallen for you which i should not have...

Everything was so bright when an arrow pierce my heart and that was when you was in the Light Area...
it was then i know that attached was already branded on you...
chances immediately dropped to the state of not possible anymore...

Then everything changes again when i fall into the Dark Pit which was full of thorns...
the stab i feel was like i'm crushed by roses...
it was then the word negative chances was given to me...

Both was what you have given to me...
although it was better if you left without a music or sound...
but it seems that,i'm suppose to be the one to vanish...
there wasn't even a space in your heart for me...
i guess i shouldn't be waiting anymore...
everything ended with the musics...

NOTE:PLEASE STOP MY OTHER PLAYER & LISTEN TO THIS...

Let
It just
Got burned away in the
Hot sun with my heart
Together...

NOTE:PLEASE STOP MY OTHER PLAYER & LISTEN TO THIS...

Don't let
A single
Reasons
Keep me for
Not
Even letting you go because of the
Sweet memories turned into
Sorrowful tears...

NOTE:PLEASE STOP MY OTHER PLAYER & LISTEN TO THIS...

HOWEVER...
DO YOU KNOW.?.
THIS IS WHAT I WANT TO SAY...

Will you marry me? Will you live forever with me?
Whilst loving each other

I want to have a child that looks like me, another one that looks like you
And live, unhurt, for 1000, or 10000 years

To be honest with you, I like you more than you like me
And people say that's better between a man and a woman

I'll love you more. I'll take care of you
If you cry, if you're having a hard time, if you're hurt, I'll hurt with you

I'll love you forever, I'll protect you forever
I'm thankful that Ive met someone like you
I want to love only you everyday

Will you marry me

Rap) Marry me, there is a feeling of happiness everyday
And I look forward to tomorrow with you
Why am I nervous
You are the best, no matter how much I look at you
Until our black hair becomes white
Until our lives end
Even if I put water to your hands, I wont put tears in your eyes

You as my half, I'm as your half
I'll love you as long as I breathe

When time goes by and we get wrinkles
You and I will be together like now

I'll love you more. I'll take care of you
If you cry, if you're having a hard time, if you're hurt, I'll hurt with you

I'll love you forever, I'll protect you forever
I'm thankful that I've met someone like you
I want to love only you everyday

Rap) You're like the light which lightened up my dark life
The sound of soup boiling greeting me
The rain that falls on my thirsty heart
The poem that contains the meaning of love
The string of destiny that the heavens have allowed
The meeting between you and I was meant to be
You'll be irreplaceable even if I was given the whole world
You'll be the only person in my life forever

I'll love you more. I'll take care of you
If you cry, if you're having a hard time, if you're hurt, I'll hurt with you

I'll love you forever, I'll protect you forever
I'm thankful that I've met someone like you
I want to love only you everyday

Although married was so far away but lets just fall in love first...
it doesn't matter if pain and hurt was felt..
but i know that I LOVE YOU...
at first,i anyhow used this word because i don't know the meaning of it...
but later,i found out that only you was the one that i should be saying it...
if there was even a chance left,my last word to you would be this...
blessed by the stars that shine brightly on you and crowned my love for you...

Even though,love was not a lonely matter...
but just let me be the only one to bear your pain,sorrowful hearts and your tears...
even with a worn out body,mind and soul...
i will protect you with the 8 words,i promised...

Credits:
1st - Respective Companies,Production Teams,Artists...
2nd - Youtube...
3rd - Uploaders...

2010-08-18T15:33:00.002+08:00

Can Friendship (Fs) be equal to Love Relationship (LRs).?.

NOTE:PLEASE STOP MY OTHER PLAYER & LISTEN TO THIS...

Everything changes for a reasons and even it does not change,it will also not be the same anymore...
sometimes we wonder if the changes are good or bad...
but why haven't we ponder about why it change.?.
is it because of something which we have done.?.
or it just change accordingly to the wills of the peoples around us.?.

Although sometimes,it seems so awkward...
we nag or even speak wrongly...
but we seems that we bond even closer to one another...

Well,i just hope that whatever could be change but not our friendships...
although we might not have known each others for a long period of time but it seems that we are really besties...
even with the love flowers blooming,but i hope that our friendships could last long and be even closer to one another...

2010-08-18T12:26:00.002+08:00

A DATE...

NOTE:PLEASE STOP MY OTHER PLAYER & LISTEN TO THIS...

I remember a time,when we have ice-cream together...
that was a time when you was really down...
i even tried all ways to make you smile again...
although you seems like you was okays,but deep down you are feeling awful...
i even lie to you that my smart dressing was not for you...
but that is when i like to show a neat self of myself...

At that time,i really want to express myself but i just can't bring myself to...
it just don't seems right...
maybe a fool like me deserve this...
but i'm just unhappy about it...
i guess i just have to forget about it then...

Well,although it was just that one session but i was already happy already...
may i get the chance again.?.
i really want to question myself...
Is This It,Should It End Like This.?.
seeing you in a blissful moment,but i just really want to ask you too Are You Really Happy.?.
i don't know how should i send the message to you...
just blame it on me...
maybe it is too late now,but i guess i should just give you my blessings then...

Even when times flies pass,but may we never meet again then...
Angels sleeping on the stars shine a light on the sleeping diamond roses...
And the night was covered by that beautiful light shine upon it...

2010-08-13T23:59:00.002+08:00

It Was All A LIES...

to the unknown person...
seriously,why cant't i just let go.?.
why.?.
i could ask others to let go but not myself...
and i could only say i'm just sorry that i created so many misunderstandings...
and now i'm really leaving,i guess i wont't turn my head back anymore...
so take cares...
take everythings i said and done as a LIES ba...
byes...

2010-08-12T23:59:00.002+08:00

A BET...

hahas...
had a bet with Yin Long and Melissa...
and guess what.?.
Melissa lost by default,hahas...
clever me and Yin Long huh.?.
anyways,always have fun with the both...
smiles...

2010-08-09T23:59:00.002+08:00

Broadcast of 6th Asia Festival & National Day Parade...

today,i wake up early in the morning as i was sooo excited that today there will be a broadcast of the 6th Asia Festival held in Korea...
and guess what.?.
Girls' Generation is performing...
woohooo,i'm so going to catch it...
spend the time at Yin Long's house to watch the whole broadcast...
had a fun time looking at the whole festival...
hahas...
anyways,congrats on the 45th Happy National Day...
wooo...
yesh...

2010-08-06T23:59:00.002+08:00

School National Day Celebration/Yin Long's House...

well,today we have an advanced celebration on the Nation Birthday...
the air was filled with a festival and joyous mood...
anyways,been to Yin Long's house today...
his house was unexpectedly clean...
as in very clean...
i'm totally amazed...
hahas...
anyways,we spend some fun times there and i guess his home will be our next hideout ba...
can camp there also...
hahas...

2010-08-01T23:59:00.000+08:00

EXAMINATIONS...

All this while,i have been some tests here and there...
well,kind of stress but it is also a test to test on our readiness for the phase tests...
hope i could do well though...

2010-07-14T23:59:00.002+08:00

Friends -> Closer Friends...

up in ranked or whatever the case...
it just seems that we are able to open up to each others now...
i'm also shocked that i would have told your this...
but now,both of your will be the only one who know me the best...
hope it could be like that forever...
Y/M...

2010-07-03T23:59:00.003+08:00

Spend 1 night at Mac...

yesh,i spend a night at Mac with Yin Long,Melissa,Derek...
hahas...
we spend the night rushing our LLA project...
anyways,the night was well spend...
hahas...
this holiday is tiring...
hope some happening things happen...

2010-07-02T23:59:00.001+08:00

3 Days in Orchard...

Don't be shocked by the title...
it isn't what you think...
yes,we visited Melissa on her work place for 3 days...
and i could say that we have manage to do a little on our LLA project...
hahas,i guess we are now scared of coffee...
coffee anyone.?.
I guess we are now even closer as friends that was quite shocking to me...
kekeke...
hope we could bond even further then...

2010-06-24T23:59:00.005+08:00

GROUP CHALET,HOORAY...

Ivy Koh,Melissa,Yin Long,James,Qing Mu, Yo Hui,Derek,Kelvin,Ivy Lim,Me,Farhan,Abastian (From Left - Right,Up - Down)...
Credit:Derek's camera...

Jun hua,Yi hui,James,Zion,Qing Mu,Kelvin,Yin long,Me,Ivy Koh,Ivy Lim,Kelvin,Derek (From Left - Right,Up - Down)...
Credit:Derek's camera...

Through this 3 Days and 2 Nights,we have of course bonded even further...
but let me part this whole process into bits...

Day 1
(i)Met early in the morning to start preparing...
We have packed like so many things that as if we have hundred of peoples attending,hahas...
(ii)Waited for so long for the rooms to be cleared...
Gosh,we sat there like for almost an hour,maybe we reached too early.?.
(iii)Okays,we were like so crazy jumping on the bed...
Are we having a wrestling session here.?.hahas...
(iv)We tour around the whole place and have meals here and there...
I think i have fallen for the food served at E-Hub...
(v)Concerts at night.?.
We were like disturbing those who tried to sleep,hahas...
Like every hours.?.

Day 2
(i)Morning swim...
We went for a cold swim in the pool in the morning,freezing...
(ii)BBQ...
The food taste not bad...
(iii)Teachers arrived...
Mdm Evani and Mr Lincoln take time out to come...
Have a great chatting session with them...
(iv)Celebrations...
Happy Birthday Yi Hui...
(v)Cards session...
We almost didn't recognise each other as we were too tired...hahas...

Day 3
Off and went back home...
very tired...
although some parts of this class gathering wasn't a pleasant one but i hope we could have just enjoy it...
hope to have more of this coming soon...

2010-06-17T23:59:00.003+08:00

Service Learning Workshop

Me,Boon Keong,Daryl,Derek,Qing Mu (From Left - Right)...
Credit: Taken with Derek's handphone...

1st - Got to know how service learning is liked...
"It is learnt through EXPERIENCES and not by just papers and books"...

2nd - Got to meet some of the interesting mentors of the workshop...
Met with some awesome peoples who dedicated themselves for others and show their cares and concerns with their daily lives...

3rd - Seriously,i got to start thinking for others around me...
It looks like i have not started to spare a thought for peoples around me and i just have to start right away...

Lastly,i hope to start everything afresh...
it doesn't matter what ever happens,i just want to live everything on a blank new plain paper...
It's my wish...

2010-06-14T23:59:00.001+08:00

THE MIND CAFE...

Minds,minds,minds...
this place was suggested by Derek and it was supposed to be for our Lifeskills Learning Activity (LLA)...
but all of us have fun even to the extend of forgetting our projects...
hahas...
anyways,this place is filled with board,cards and block games...
it was an interesting learning experience as i got to learn some of them...
and it was indeed a brain wracking session...
ouch,it hurts...

2010-05-14T23:59:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KELVIN...

Derek,Yinlong,Jun hua,Me,Boon keong,Kelvin,Yi hui,Sheng wei,James,Qing mu,Melissa,Ivy Koh & Ivy Lim(From Left - Right)...
Credit:Taken from Derek Handphone camera...

First and foremost,i would like to extend my congratulations to my new founded group of friends...
then now i will congratulate Kelvin on his 19th Happy Birthday...
well,in life we will experience lots of 1st time as in different experiences that helps us to grow and my 1st time in celebrating such occasions was with my new founded friends...
in this 18 years of life,this is the first...
anyways,i decided not to post on what happen that day as the memories will be kept by those who attended and never to be forgotten...
Lastly,hope that Kelvin like the surprises and presents prepared by all of us...
Hoorays...

2010-04-25T23:11:00.005+08:00

BXB.?.

today wasn't a good day at all...
many things happened and ya this is how it goes...
last night,i predicted that my day wasn't going to be that good today...
and guess what.?.
i'm totally correct...
i haven't had much sleep at all...
haiz...

wake up early in the morning with half of me awake...
feeling tired,i lie down again...
as soon as i woke up,it was already 8.40am...
then i hurried to shower as i'm suppose to be ready by 9am sharp...
but usually,i'm always late...
hahas...
today was quite a "special" day,as the late comers like Lan xin,Eden & Jia sheng came early and Hui xian also did turn up today...
wooo...

at around 9am plus,the jiao dao yuans (jdys) hold a meeting to brief on todays agenda...
then bu xi ban (bxb) started with me leading with the du jing...
after du jing,each level was appointed at different tables...
so the ban yuans (bys) started to set up their tables & chairs...
after setting up,the bys greeted the jdys and the tuition begin...

as i'm a Primary 4 jdy,i went to my table and give out work for them to do...
today they are doing composition...
as their Mid-Year Exam are coming,i decided to let them do more writing...
hopefully,this will ensure them to do better...

thing will quite usual until around 10.30am,when Jia rong was send to Chu fen jie...
he was then separated and went to one to one coaching...
then that only left with Rachael,Jing min & Jasmine...
Jia ye also went with Jia rong,but she ended up coaching Kai hong...

a few minutes passes,and i was coaching Rachael when they started to do some drawings...
then they draw me with something else...
and they keep asking for Jia ye...
they also said they don't want me to teach them...
with a deep tone,i ask again...
Me:“你们真的不要我教你们huh.?.”
They:"Arzhz (that means yes)..."

at the very next moment,i pack my stuffs and left the table...
then i went to get my handphone,wallet & Mp3 and went out...
i took the lift down and head to 7-11 and brought Peppermint Green Tea...
after i purchase my drink,i went back home...
then i head to the kitchen and drink the whole bottle in a gulp...

after that,i went to look for Chu fen jie and told her about it...
then Jia ye went out and i sat down...
soon after,Bi ting jie came and talk to Chu fen jie...
after that,i also explain the whole situation...
and i was thinking at that time and told Chu fen jie a lot of stuffs...

i quite regretted that i said too much...
and did i opened up more.?.
cause i'm not the type to tell others my problems or what i'm actually thinking...

anyways,i told her i could be out working,visiting my grandparents or even studying...
and why should i even need to be here anyways.?.
everything will still be the same even if i'm not around mah...
and i never chosen to be a jdy,it is because i'm set as a default to be one...
and i'm already kind of stress out already...
studying ITE,retaking "Os" & even need to take up CCA...
i been even looking for hobbies too and i'm quite interested in piano & guitar...
but the point is,i don't have the time for all of it...

Jia ye then ask why and what am i stressed about.?.
she even said she could prepare the work for the bys...
she then later talked to me about it again...
then later,she pass me a paper with the bys drawing,i guess they are trying to apologise...
but without seeing it,i tear the paper...
and Chu fen jie & Jia ye was shocked by what i did...
and Jia ye then said "为什么你这样.?."
i didn't replied at all...
and Kai hong was sitting beside me,trying to talk to me but i ignored...

anyways,i continue to coach Kai hong...
and soon the tutoring ended...
and before shao xiang,Bi ting jie & Jia ye talk to me again...
Bi ting jie told me she talked to the bys le,and they was just saying it because they don't how to do their work...
anyways,i wasn't really listening...

Jia lin also told me she is also facing some problems from her bys...
Lan xin then also came over and asked me what happened.?.
then Jia ye turned over and said it wasn't true and she later talked to me,asking me to stay on and teach Primary 4 and they liked me alot...
and again,i was like half listening only...

after shao xiang,we have our meals...
and after meals,we hold a meeting for the 五月份大型 Activity...
then the meeting ended with ice-cream and a little discussion...

soon,i get changed and went to sleep...
at round 6pm,i woke up and shower...
while showering,a lot of thing came popping in my head...
after that i came out...

immediately,i phoned Rachael and apologise to her of what i have done...
as she is the most innocent and guilty one in this matter...
i would also like to apologise to Chu fen jie,Bi ting jie & Jia ye for me causing so many problems...
i'm seriously very sorry about it...
and to Chu fen jie,i shouldn't have said that i could be elsewhere doing something else then be at bxb and about me defaulting as a jdy...
i'm would also like to apologise to all jian qings (jqs),jdys & bys for causing a scene...
and finally,to the Primary 4 bys...
anyways,luckily i didn't really loss my temper...
or else it won't be nice...

there are a few things that was stuck in my head...
a mere words from the bys give my confidence a wake up call...
am i really that bothered by it or was i too emotion.?.
haiz...
and am i really cut off to be a jdy.?.

when someone came to a dead end,he or she should turned around and look for a way out...
but what am i suppose to do,if i'm stucked with 1 ceiling,1 floor & 4 walls.?.
will you draw a door for me and open it for me.?.
seriously,am i endlessly searching for something that don't exist at all.?.

and i'm still wondering if i should continue to be a jdy anot...
feeling sad and down...
and most importantly disappointed...

2010-04-12T23:59:00.002+08:00

O-R-I-E-N-T-A-T-I-O-N...

today is the official first day i'm in school...
and the school was really very big...
anyways,i took 27 & change to 31 with Patricia...
haiz,the trip was long and the bus was packed...
oh ya...
maybe packed is not a good word to use...
it is practically no space at all...
waited for 4 buses of 31...
after that,i finally reached school...
orientation the begin and ended at around 4pm...
wooo,what a day...
and hopefully i can fit into the school and most importantly my class...
hahas...

2010-04-03T23:59:00.001+08:00

5A1 Rainy Class BBQ (RC-BBQ)...

BBQ session was set at some time back and today is the day to carry out this event and meet up...
i looked up at the sky as it started to gather clouds...
and i was like think,don't tell me its going to rain.?.
and guess what.?.
it really rains...
ohhh...
that wasn't a good sign at all...

anyways,i still head towards the bbq pit with thiru...
when we reached there,we saw a few of them setting up the pit under the rain...
umbrellas was also used in the process...
hahas...

then at time goes by,many more started to arrive...
under the rain,the bbq session started...
and near the pit,there was a long pavement of shelter and that is where they took their food there and i didn't eat at all...

well,after hours pass...
we took photos and bid each other goodbyes...
below are the photo...

credit to thiru's camera & vikkash the photographer...
many thanks to the planning & logistics team...
have a great session with 5A1...
and its a pity some couldn't turn up...
and was wondering when could we meet up next then...
cause all of us will be entering into different institution and will be busy by then...

3rd April 2010,22:22 - Class 5A1...

2010-03-13T23:59:00.010+08:00

Ah Gong & Ah Ma's Birthday Party...

On the 13th of March 2010...
it is officially set for the birthday celebration of my grandparents...
only excitement await me...
cause i can meet and play with my cousins...
hahas...

anyways,the day was filled with schedules i need to attend to...
firstly,my aunt's son is throwing a wedding lunch at 1pm...
secondly,the birthday celebration commences at 5pm...
thirdly,Eden's house tang qing...
i'm only able to attend the first two...
i'm sorry to Eden & Jia lin...
sorry...

rush,rush,rush...
rushing from one place to another...
that day i dress up with a white shirt,black pant,a blazer and a pink tie...
its almost seems like a waiter...
hahas...

then we head towards M hotel for the function...
waited quite some time for the event to start...
arghz,i'm so hungry...
courses came after courses and soon we left the place...

as soon as we bid goodbyes,we hurried down to Orchidville...
well,the trip was long...
it was almost from one end to another...
but when i reached,i saw my little cousins running around...
arhhhz,i hurried took a photos with her after she changes...
below are the photos...
credit to Xiao gu,Ah ling & Jun ying...

hehes,here is it...
the lovely princess...
cute right.?.
hahas,me & clarabelle...
she smiling at the camera for the first time...
hoorays,yesh...

next up,its the cousins with the aunts (with a ites)...
hahas...
nice photos with the clourful colours around...

next its really only the cousins...
actually still got short of a few,but never mind...
its beautiful right.?.

wohoo...
a family shot...
its been awhile since one with my grandparents...
if i'm not wrong,the last one was at the last year birthday celebration...

this 2 photos are the whole family group shots...
actually,it should be a lot more de lor...
a pity that some on my cousins are unable to attend...
anyways,that day was nothing but fun,fun and lots of fun...
hahas...
next year celebration will be even better...
wooo...

2010-03-01T23:59:00.003+08:00

Have I Make A Wrong Step.?.

early in the morning,i have done something which i feel guilty about...
it seems that i shouldnt have act like that...
i just dont know what to do then...
and i think im too harsh le...
at the point of time,my mind is blank...
and no matter at which angles i looked at,i just cant find the solutions to the problems...
haiz...

NOTE:PLEASE STOP MY OTHER PLAYER & LISTEN TO THIS...
sometimes,when matter get complicated...
you will find your answer...
as whatever you are looking for is just infront of you...
and looking with a confused heart wont help you find your answer...
it was only cause matter to become worst...
and i hope i could just pull it through this...

anyways,i guess i have to step out of her life le...
and so sorry about everything and wasting so much of your time...
haiz...
byes byes...

and am i that hateful.?.
my sms was not replied...
and you dont even bother to talk to me...
well,not giving a chance for me to speak for myself...
do i really deserve this.?.
haiz...
zao zhi jin ri,he bi dang chu...

and as you get to know a person deeper,the further you will get drifted away...
somehow or another you just accidentally tap into the weakness of the person...
and it can really cause grave mistakes and misunderstandings...
well,emotional peoples like me are fools...
seriously...

angels sleeping on the stars just shine a ray of starlight on me...
let me be able to solve this...

2010-02-28T23:59:00.002+08:00

Twice visiting...

27th February...
went to help out the old peoples dinner at TG...
set up around 20 tables and 200 chairs...
manpower were short that day lor...
and i think i sprain my arm that day...
cause it hurts and aches...
anyways,i left the place after everything was in place...
after that i went to find her...
and spend some time there...
and later,i left the place and walk back home...

28th February...
today TG holds its annual qing shao nian tuan bai...
and i went for it lor...
almost everyone in our de was late lor...
hahas...
the whole things was so funny lor...
as the stage is so small and everyone went up...
they all looks like sandwiches been packed together...
the show was funny also...
but my day was spoiled by a few qing shao nian...
they were playing like fools...
and Eden almost went up and confront them...
anyways,went downstairs later to lao yu sheng...
Lan xin was eyeing on the food...
hahas...
saw many peoples i know also at there...
and after everything ends,i went to look for her again...
i waited quite some time for the bus to arrive lor...

anyways,my day ended by helping Lan xin do her quiz...
100 plus questions is a few minutes...
and now my neck and back ache alot...

2010-02-25T23:59:00.004+08:00

JIAYOUS...

well,today is just as usual as yesterday and it might be like this tomorrow...
but,everything changes as i heard of a bad news...
despite of the news,i try to talk to her...
its seems that she is kind of down...
seeing like there is no tomorrow as the stars just wont shine...
i encourage her with mere words,and it just dont seems enough...
anyways,i want to present to her the video below...

NOTE:PLEASE STOP MY OTHER PLAYER & LISTEN TO THIS...
dont think about it anymore le...
lets just place everything behind...

Just jolt it down as an beautiful memories carried with love...
Its a matter of time for time to close up your wounds...
And just embrace yourself to move on...
You must choose the path that you should really take and not be soft-hearted...
Only your heart could make the decision...
Use this experience as a moving force and not just only looking back at it...
Silently walking away with tears shouldnt be what you should be doing...

anyways,above this JIAYOUS is i make it up de...
it doesnt mean any harm to anyone...
be blessed to move on ba...
and remember you will always have a listening ear here waiting...
a question have been asked and the answer will be found soon...

2010-02-23T23:59:00.001+08:00

18th Birthday = Old.?.

23rd is just anyday...
but in February,its my birthday...
i spend the day with a group of my friend...
have lots of laughter and presents received also...
oh ya,those owe me de...
faster give me hor...
hahas...
anyways,i quite enjoy today...
many,many,many thanks to all the blessings i received...
yesh...
love your...
it doesnt matter if its advanced or belated birthday wishes...
its the sincerity that counts...
hope there will be another party as great as this next year...
i will be waiting de...
smiles...

2010-02-16T23:59:00.008+08:00

Tears Roll Down As I Listened...

today is chu san (3rd day of the Lunar New Year)...
and we also been to many places...
but today,we never joined with my 6th uncle and aunt...
we went by ourselves as we have other dao qings and neighbours to visit...
so we take a separate path...
anyways,been to lots of places today also...
went to lan xin's house again...
spend quite some time there...
have a great lunch there also,thanks...
we also went to ah han's new house to bai nian...

had another meal there again...
hahas...
so full...
below were some photos taken...

1st photo is my solo picture...hahas...

2nd photo was with my brother (Clive)...

3rd photo is with my beautiful cousin (Jun ying)...

4th photo was with my smart cousin (Wei ying)...

And lastly,the 5th photo was with the both of them lor...

we couldnt gather everyone...

it will be too huge a group le...

hahas...

NOTE:PLEASE STOP MY OTHER PLAYER & LISTEN TO THIS...
anyways,i was in my father's car listening to my MP3...
suddenly i heard about my father talking about something that seems to concern me...
and i finally know how wronged im to have blame them for it...
at that point of time,the musics that was playing didnt even reach my ear...
and i thought of this song...

after listening to this,tears begin to fill my eyes...
but i didnt show it...
i begin to feel that how i thought that they just vent their angers on me and not care...
but after listening to the explanation...
i felt that i just dont know how to express my emotions well...
haiz...
feeling guilty about it...
i should have been more understandings...
sorry for my ignorance...
how foolish i feel now...
du bu qi...
sobs,sobs,sobs...

2010-02-15T23:59:00.005+08:00

13 Places in One Day...

today wake up early in the morning to prepare myself...
cause today is chu er (the 2nd day of the Lunar New Year)...
and we always paired ourselves with my 6th uncle and aunt...
as we head to the places are the same de...
this year was the same...
and i enjoy it as i can play with my youngest cousin (Clarabelle)...
hahas...

well,today she like dont want to talk to me lor...
and im thinking how should i approach her...
finally,after awhile she play with me...
yesh...
today we been to many places to bai nian...
and its very tiring...

i have some photos snapped and here im uploading it...
thanks jun ying for the photos...

this photos (1st shot) was taken at my 3rd aunt's house...
and my brother looks like as he could blend with the background (the pink wardrobe)...
hahas...

anyways,the 2nd picture was also taken at the same place...
but my brother pose change...
and is he copying me.?.
well,alot of peoples are saying that we look alike...
but our characteristics are obviously different...
and he look like as he is modeling for a watch commercial.?.
hahas...

and lastly,this photo was taken with my youngest cousin...

hooray...

she look so lovely and cute lor...

twist...

anyways,13 places in a day was quite tiring...

and there are still more places for us to go tomorrow...

2010-02-14T23:59:00.006+08:00

Chu Yi (First Day of the Lunar New Year)...

yesh,its the first day of the Lunar New Year...
and this year,it is a double blessings...
the Lunar New Year and Valentine Day is celebrated on the same day...
140210...

anyways,be blessed by the twice blessings...
firstly,wishing all of your a Happy Lunar New Year 2010...
may your roar like the tiger and achieve great results...
secondly,wishing you peoples a Happy Valentine Day...
be blessed by the love that is showered on all of your...
lastly,just spread the happiness,blessings and love around...

well,i barely sleep...
but i was happy,i also have twice chance to eat steamboat...
one at my ah ma's house and the other at my house...
and i went to bai nian as early as the clock strike 12am...
then went out at 2-3am to lan xin's house and we watched movies there...
and ya,she fall asleep first...
hahas...
left her house at around 5-6am...
then i only slept at around a quarter past 7am...
only 4 hours passed and im awake...

and now,we waited for my gan mei Kelly to come first...
they are also the first to come and bai nian...
and like finally,she turn up and they stay here for quite awhile...
as after they left,we prepared ourselves to head out to bai nian...

this year,we went to my wai po's house first to bai nian...
anyways,it never change every year...
but this year,i didnt heard the mahjong sound leh...
hahas...
we collected quite alot of blessings (ang pao) at there...

then we went back to my ah ma's house...
wow,its great greeting my cousins with a hellos...
hahas...
we spend time there and that is how i spend my first day of the Lunar New Year...
i want to sleep...

2010-02-10T23:59:00.000+08:00

Bugis again...

yesh,i went Bugis Street again...
this time with jun ying and yan zhi...
my cousins...
and i managed to purchase all my clothes for lunar new year...
today i purchase a shirt,a pant and a pair of shoes...
hooray...
im quite happy at this year my selection...
wait and see then...
hahas...

2010-02-06T23:59:00.000+08:00

Bugis Street = Walking Alone.?.

well,today went to bugis and purchase some new year clothing...
we went as 5 person...
but i ended up walking alone...
anyways,i manage to purchase 3 shirts...
hahas...
i show that to jun ying at my ah ma's house...
she said the clothings was nice...
thanks lar...
but she also scolded me for not asking her to tag along...
so i promise to go with her before lunar new year since she havent purchase all her clothes yet...
hahas...

2010-02-05T23:59:00.000+08:00

Help Needed...

yesterday someone want me to help her in something today...
so i gear up as early as i can and head out...
well,its jia lin lar...
she needed help in some videos...
so i went to help her lor...
ming chun was also there...
so we started to look for musics to be placed into the videos...
it sure took a long time lor...
all because of jia lin...
anyways,we managed to clear everything after couple of hours and rushed down to tian guo since we all got ly...
hahas...
then we went to eat and i was like teasing jia lin lor...
sorry hor...
hahas...

2010-01-27T23:59:00.001+08:00

W W W.?.(Wild Wild Wet)

went out with the guys again...
we went to wild wild wet today...
and we played there the whole day...
spend time under the sun is great...
we were all tanned,even with sun block on...
hahas...
of course lar,me as well...
have lots of fun and laughter today...
wohoo...
really enjoyed it...

2010-01-20T23:59:00.002+08:00

Biking Expedition...

yesh...
this is the 2nd time i went with the guys (my friends/ex-classmates) to bike...
the trip was long (dont know how many KMs) and all of us were aching here and there...
anyways,it was a fun day...
and sorry,i was kind of late that day...
sorry...
hope we can find another time to go for another one...

2010-01-11T23:59:00.000+08:00

"O" Level Result Released...

today havent been a good day...
or should i said today is the worst day ever...
the results were release today and guess people...
yesh,just guess how did i fare...
omg i was so shocked at my results...

gosh...
how badly can i fell.?.
i once fall at PSLE and now this.?.
i was on the verge of tears when i told my mother my result over the phone...
but suddenly,i remembered something...
i promise lan xin that i will not cry even how bad my result is...
at least i didnt...
many of us did not do that well as expected...
sorry to all those who guide us and teach us...
we fail to uphold the aces we are suppose to have...

after that,i went to compass point and have a walk...
then shortly,i went home...
feeling unsure and disappointed...

then at night,my parents have a talk with me...
i really fail them...
they look at me with those eyes makes me guilty...
i really can feel the disappointed looks on their faces...
even if im scolded for the night,i dont care...
i only care about the feelings that they are feeling...
that night,i cry as i went to bed...
i didnt sleep a wink as i cry the whole night...
thinking about a lot of things...
everything just come and flood my mind...
problems that i felt at that time was unbearable...
it feels as i have lost everything...
everything that means nothing as it seems to me...
but those were very important...

haiz...
just tell me what to do.?.

2010-01-01T23:59:00.002+08:00

Welcoming 2010...

today the first day of 2010...
welcome 2010...
hope this year will be fill with wishes that will come true...
hahas...
be healthy and have fun in 2010...
smiles...

2009-12-31T23:59:00.003+08:00

Last Day of 2009 = Party.?.

hooray...
finally,the last day of 2009...
the year 2009,sure have been a greatful year...
a year filled with fun with my friends and sadness as to depart from my secondary school...
anyways,i spend the last evening in 2009 in lan xin's house...

we have steamboat and BBQ...
and of course chit-chatting session...
people present are lan xin,hui yun,eden,alicia,liang jie,clive,desmond,jia lin & shu qi...
well,we actually miss the countdown to 2010...
we are so busy chatting that time seems to slow down...
and of course we have lots of food and not to mention about fun...

as stated in lan xin's blog...
"Roy Kor! Thanks for your present! Hoho. I love it even tho the box filled w newspaper was really bad. Bleagh. Bt I like the box too(: hahas! Don't worry abt your results la. It will be fine(: This yr we shall rock bxb man. Hahas! Thanks for spending the last day of 2009 here:D I know I have been irritating but don't worry, will try to keep it down this yr. Hahaha! Look forward to my next present. Hoho!"
hahas...
i actually tricked her,as i fill the box with newspaper and gave it to her...
sorry arhz...
anyways,yaaa...
we will rock bxb,yesh...
and i dont find you irritating,just you dont find me irritating can le...
smiles...
and dont keep too down hor...
just be lan xin can le...
you know what i mean right.?.

anyways,sending 2009 away and accepting the year 2010...
well,we see the morning of 2010...
cause we chat until morning...
wohoo...
hope to spend another great countdown with my friends...
lets do that again,sometimes again...
yesh...
oh ya,Happy 2010 peoples...

2009-12-25T23:59:00.000+08:00

Christmas...

first of all,Happy Christmas 2009 peoples...
anyways,this year christmas was sooo quiet...
last year,we even have a party lor...
this year,it was quite rush...
so we didnt throw one...
hope that next year,we could have another one...
praying hard for that...

2009-12-24T23:59:00.002+08:00

Out with Kelly Gan Mei...

went to Plaza Singapura for a walk today...
actually went to search present for someone de...
and i said to Kelly mei that i want to purchase a celestial necklace for her...
hahas...
well,Kelly mei im not rich lar...
then we head to Tampines to collect Kelly's shirt...
and suddenly,omg...
aiyos,an unwanted scene...
anyways,we actually wanted to catch Alvin & the Chipmuck 2 de...
but the cinema was full and all tickets sold out for Avartar & Alvin & the Chipmuck 2...
since its the opening for this 2 movies...
later on,we went to kopitiam and have a drink...
soon,i bring Kelly mei to meet her sister and then i left...

2009-12-19T23:59:00.002+08:00

Du Jing Outing...

today,i went with a bunch of kids for some outing...
well,spend my time having lots of fun...
visit my facebook for more pictures...
snap,snap,snap...
lots of photos taken...
i love the group pictures...
and just let this memories be kept with all that have attended...
smiles...

2009-12-11T23:59:00.000+08:00

Is it Good or Bad.?.

today is the last day of my work...
is it good or bad then...
well,i will just let nature take its course ba...
lets look at it differently...
the good side is that im finally able to rest more...
since this work start,i almost head out early and went home late...
its very tiring arhz...
and for the bad side is that im out of jobs...
and no earnings then...
aiyos...
can anyone find me something to do,please.?.

well,im abit sad to leave also but i cant work for Saturday and Sunday...
as i have religious stuffs to attend to...
thanks that someone,who remind me about other stuffs more important than my job...
thanks...

2009-12-10T23:59:00.001+08:00

Jealous.?.

sometimes,jealousy can harm others...
hahas...
someone is jealous...
well,what can i say then.?.
dont be jealous lar...

2009-12-08T23:59:00.002+08:00

Off day = Bad day...

well,today i dont have to work...
so i slack at home...
didnt really want to go out also...
and thus,i spend my time at home lor...
sometimes your off day might not be a good day for you...
i got noted that friday will be my last day...
haiz...
now i got no work le...
yesh,what a bad day...

2009-12-06T23:59:00.004+08:00

Delivery...

Went shopping today...
today i wake up early to prepare myself...
heading to the new building in somerset...
its 313 @ Somerset...
had lunch at Hougang Mall...
then train down to somerset...
wow,the smell of a new building...
hahas...
anyways,after shopping...
we went to Plaza Singapura to play arcade...
we shoot hoops...
very tiring arhz...
after then we went home and my arm hurts...

yesh,today i specially deliver lunch for someone lor...
well.i have promise de so i cant back out...
okays,anyways did you enjoy the lunch...
i wake up early in the morning to rush and buy de...
if the food is not to your liking then i can only say sorry...
hahas...
just enjoy the food ba...
smiles...

2009-12-05T23:59:00.011+08:00

Dont bite me...

Ouch,dont bite me...
waaa,some one bite my hand today...
painful leh...
hahas...

anyways,today have been an awesome day...
by chance,i meet up with a friend that i have known for years...
well,im just glad that she is doing well...
we havent been contacting for some time le...
hope that we can continue to contact each other...
yesh...
remember hor...

2009-12-04T23:59:00.012+08:00

I will never let go,will you.?.

today at work,when i was about to go to the toilet...

i found out that the males toilet is having a total clean out...

so only can use the handicapped toilet...

anyways,i didn't go...

arghz...

at that time,i almost went into the females toilet...

waaa,make me wait...

pissed off...

i never enter lar...

after much waiting,it is finally done...

after i went,i head back home...

i took someone jacket today also...

hahas...

i really like the jacket lor...

shhh,don't tell her...

well,i just want to say that...

i won't let go of your hands...

no matter is right or left...

remember what i said before,ok.?.

don't make what i said feel as nothing...

it doesn't matter if i have to take sides...

it is okays de...

i don't want you to everytime just give ways to others...

fight for it...

take back what is yours...

i don't want to see your sad face again...

stand up for yourself,ok.?.

don't ever regrets the decisions you made...

as you know,it is the roads you need to take...

smiles...

wo ba ci ke xian ge ni...

zhi xi wang ni neng zhi dao...

2009-12-03T23:59:00.002+08:00

Anger built up...

stressed arhz...
waaa,can't believe it...
i just know that i today my anger built up so fast...
make my blood boil arhz...
make me looked like a fool walking here and there...
arghz...
i hope this don't happen that frequently...
blessed then...

2009-12-01T23:59:00.002+08:00

First pay cheque...

wohoo...
finally...
after working so many days,i got my very first pay cheque...
192.42...
yeahs...
after working then you will realised how difficult it is to earn money...
aiyas...
i should have known that earlier and save some...
from now on,i want to save...
remind me peoples...
anyways,i hope to earn 500.00 per month...
hope that i will be able to hit my target...
im so happy today,yeah...

2009-11-29T23:59:00.002+08:00

Fo Tang Anniversary...

well...
busy,busy,busy...
today have been a busy day today...
today fo tang anniversary...
therefore lots of peoples gathered at my house...
saw many cousins,friends and my gan meis...
hahas...
i was running around rushing to prepare everything...
even at the last moment lor...

then somemone,someone said i look like a clown...
waaa,break my heart arhz (shattered diamonds)...
anyways,i still owe lan xin a belated birthday gift...
just wait for her to think about what she want ba...

i have some questions i want to ask...
but should i.?.
or should i not.?.
will the consequences be out of control.?.
有时保持沉默可能会是最好的出路...
i think i just sealed them in a unknown area inside of my heart then...
well...
sorry lan xin...
i still can't blog it out...
zhen de hen bao qian...
wo wei yi neng zuo de shi shuo dui bu qi...
byes...

2009-11-28T23:59:00.003+08:00

Day off...

well as your know,or not...
im working already...
then today i took day off for grandparent's fo tang anniversary...
well,it great to see my cousins gathered around...
hahas...
we have lots of food and most importantly fun...
yesh...
quite tired today...
tomorrow will be my house fo tang anniversary...
waaa...
busy tomorrow...

2009-11-19T23:59:00.003+08:00

Game On...

today went to play basketball...
but at first even before we play,there is a heavy downpour...
anyways,we did managed to play lar...
wei,alicia next time don't keep my basketball...
hahas...
have fun today also...
congrats huixian in overcoming her fear...
hoorays...

2009-11-11T23:59:00.001+08:00

Finally over...

yesh,all those days i never blog is because of "Os" levels...
and guess what.?.
today i have finally ended my 2nd biggest exams as of now...
1st is PSLE...
then now is "Os" levels...
hoorays...
celebrate peoples...
dance,yeah...
okays,that too high...
shhh...
just say yeah will do le...
the dance and shouting wait till morning,ok.?.

2009-10-25T23:59:00.000+08:00

Covered with black oil...

i went to play some sports today and guess what.?.
my soccer ball suddenly got stuck under the car...
and i went to retrieve it,and got my hands covered with the black oil that come out from the car...
it was hard to remove it lor...
but anyways with lots of effort,i managed to clear it...
hooray...
im no going to touched the black oil again...
and shhh,i fall today also...

2009-10-24T23:59:00.002+08:00

Waaa,im red...

today when i was on my way to my grandparent's house,i took some alcohol...
hahas...
then when i reached,all of them was so shocked...
as im red...
and i feel quite hot...
i think is because i walked too fast just now...
make my blood run faster...
anyways,that is all...

2009-10-22T23:59:00.000+08:00

Starting of exams just freaked me out...

well,today is the starting of the very first "Os" level paper (science practical)...
and im so afraid,actually i did mess up abit...
but luckily,i did managed to complete...
anyways,all the best to all then...
ACES...

2009-10-21T23:59:00.000+08:00

Exams nearing...

it is not only near,but it is tomorrow...
tomorrow is the start of science practical...
waaa,stressed arhz...
guess im not the only one...
blessed me then...

2009-10-20T23:59:00.002+08:00

Choing,choing,choing...

well,today i went to Esther's house to study...
suddenly i feel that i can't remember whatever i have study...
blank,blank de...
anyways,i fix my bicycle and i fix theirs too...
waaa,tough job sia...
im not really skilled in doing this...
ya,i completed the repairing as i said...
tired arhz...

2009-10-15T23:59:00.004+08:00

...L.E.A.V.E.R.S...

as of today,i have graduated from Montfort Secondary School...
hooray...
today was the graduation ceremony and i snapped lots of photos...
well.visit my facebook for more viewing of photos...
as a photos describe a thousand words,so let only all those who have joined enjoy the memories then...
hahas...
well,celebrated an advanced birthday for Shihui also...
make lots of mess lor...

2009-10-11T23:59:00.000+08:00

Trust is something not in you...

why.?.
why once again,the trust is not there.?.
am i so hard to believe in.?.
or are you hard to deep to trust others.?.
from now on,just believe me ok.?.
xiang xing wo...

2009-10-09T23:59:00.002+08:00

You are 1 year older now,hahas...

before i forget,i better first wish someone first...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAN XIN...
now you are having your sweet 16,im having my sour 17...
hahas...
anyways congrats...
about the birthday presents,i don't know should i give anot...
im out of ideas of what to send and i don't know if she want it anot...
i just prepare and see how first lor...
if she one then i send...
thats all...

2009-10-04T23:59:00.002+08:00

3D Note...

ehhh,i sort of created this so called 3D paper lar...
and i took the original away...
hahas...
don't know also leh...
should i return or should i keep it.?.

2009-10-01T23:59:00.002+08:00

Should i be HAPPY or NOT.?.

well,today is children's day...
Happy Children's Day to all the kids and all those who are young at heart,ahem like me...
seeing all the kids so happy,just make me want to join them...
hahas...

anyways,im kind of angry also...
with someone lor...
never mind then...

it just probe me to think of my mood for the day...
so.?.
what should it be.?.

2009-09-27T23:59:00.002+08:00

Sobs-In-Process...

yup...
the word sobs really have been shouting out loud...
and dont bother looking at someone sobs-ing...
some of us can look at it...
but some others just cant stand any of this...
haiz...
maybe i should say that i didnt manage to avoid the scene...
im the one to be blame for all of this...
if i reacted the other way,i might have save the scene from happening...
my failure to fulfill what i have promise have been broken...
is it true that promises are mend to be broken and secrets are mend to be told.?.
or should it be the other way around.?.
promises are mend to be kept and secrets are mend to be hidden.?.
all in all,i will uphold what im suppose to do...
and clear my past...
the uncleared me...
hidden deep inside of me...
will it be awaken or will it be forever sleeping then.?.
me and me then...
byes...

2009-09-26T23:59:00.000+08:00

GUILTY-NESS is calling out for me...

today i have done something which i didn't think of what might happened...
haiz...
so sorry...
i didn't expect the outcome...
and it definitely isn't what i want...
i make someone sobs in front of me...
directly in front of me...
i feel so bad...
and the guilt is hunting me down...
im so scare can.?.
what can i do to pay back...
tell me,ok.?.
anything i could do or say.?.
don't sobs...
just don't sobs...
your tears are like diamonds...
my hearts will break...

2009-09-25T23:59:00.002+08:00

Study,study,study...

yup...
peoples out there...
im studying hard...
i have been attending the night study programs...
hahas...
kind of fun...
oh ya...
today have chips and drinks...
hahas...
i ate 5 packets of oreo biscuits...
i think after all this programs,i have to do some exercises...
just kidding only...
anyways,that is all...
byes...
back to study...

2009-09-25T00:00:00.003+08:00

为什么.?.

每当我和你在一起的时候,我的笑容总是会挂在我的脸上...
在当时...
我好想把我的脚步放慢,把时间顿时停下来...
连我们的旋律都变得是一样的,空气都变得更清晰更爽朗...
一阵一阵的风便打在我的那从不放下的笑容...
那时的我便没有那么多考虑或烦恼...
而在那时,笑容总是会存在...

当是...
不知从哪天开始,我的笑容变得越来越少...
越来越少...
而到现在,可能都已没了...
或许是从那天我们各走我们该走的路时...
在你转身以后,我便开始后悔...
后悔当初为什么我不多好好的珍惜你,不好好的把你的手拉近...

而...
今天的我的记忆全部都是你...
满满的回忆都有你的痕迹...
我该怎么做.?.
你可否能告诉我.?.
我没犯下什么罪...
而你也没给过我机会...
我懂了...
你没给我机会是因为你要我放弃...
要我彻底的放弃...
你也不希望我越陷越深...
也不希望我掉下无底洞...
而从此爬不起来...
可是你有没有想过我要的不是你对我的判决...
我要的是 . . . . . .

可是...
现在说着已没有用了，事实已成了定局...
我还能做什么呢.?.
i have already lost the smiles that was once alive...
and it might not even return anymore...
just hope that the smiles will come back to me...
我希望的就是以上的笑容...
失望的我便在寻找一道光线...
the imperfect me looking for a way out...

hated my damned life...
don't wish to say anymore...
why must all this fall on me...
i am just me...
not someone who could take everything...
have anyone ever wonder the smiles i put on is fake.?.
the jokes i made are merely trying to cover my sadness.?.
haiz...
anyways...
pissed off...
don't know what to do or even say...
misleading the me inside of me...

2009-09-24T23:59:00.002+08:00

Amazing...

guess what people.?.
today have officially marks the day that i studies the longest...
wohoo...
a break through...
never once i believe i could have done it...
i would like to thanks all and...
blah...
blah...
blah...
thanks you...
thanks you...
thanks you...
and i will continue this amazing records...
hahas...
all the best for 'O's peoples...

2009-09-23T23:59:00.002+08:00

Gifts & Posters...

yesh...
actually today would be yet another study day...
but guess what.?.
today there is this lesson on CPR...
so after assembly we head toward the indoor sport hall and wait for the course to start...
well,im looking forward to today...
as i planned to study today...
hear properly...
i...
me...
studying leh.!.
hahas...

soon the instructors greeted us and start the lesson...
then we went on with what he taught us...
after that we head back to our class with our CPR kits...
a box of a few items...

and once we reached our homeroom...
Mr Pang came in and give each of us a bar of chocolate...
thanks Mr Pang...
wait...
wait...
wait...
and there is also this exclusive 5A1 2009 poster given to each and everyone of us...
hahas...
5A1...
yeah,horray...
thanks once again...
will post the picture soon...

and lessons after lessons...
soon,it was math...
then miss ong got a shock...
hahas...
so funny...
anyways,time to study already...

after school,went to Hougang Mall for lunch and head back to school for the remedial...
ended the remedial at 4.30pm and i head home...
went home to study...
study,study,study...
that is all...
byes...

2009-09-22T23:59:00.002+08:00

GIVE HER FREEDOM...

why.?.
why must another one comes.?.
once pass her and yet another one enter...
just as she was still recovering from the history...
the one that hurt her deep...
so deep that it have yet to recover...
arghz...
don't hurt her anymore...

so...
tell me then.?.
don't come to cause more troubles for her,can.?.
she have nothing left now...
and your now wish to take away her last hope...
her very last hope.?.

and that is...
FREEDOM...

just how many of us could really be free.?.
your are just adding on to a mental weight called stress...
if a heavy weight is added and it couldn't hold on anymore,it will snap...
and at the time,who just who could help then.?.
at the point of time,no matter what your do can solve the problems then...
don't wait till then...

and guess what.?.
i just couldn't help but stare blankly at every incidents that passes...
what could i do then...
im just wondering...
just wondering...
could i have lend my hand and pull her up...
just to save her from this misery...

yesh...
and this is what im going to do...
just to help...
to let her be able to see the clear blue sky and fly freely...
as high as the wind could take her...
and im coming for YOU.!.
byes...

2009-09-21T23:59:00.001+08:00

BOREDOM...

i have been rotting for the past 3 days...
nothing came up...
except for one thing....
i have been wondering about it...
ya...
need to find a solution soon...
as in very soon...
or else thing might get out of hand...
and guess it...
i will...
just wait and see...
...
...
...

2009-09-17T23:59:00.003+08:00

Bowl & Pool...

yup...
meet up with the guys again...
and today isn't just any other meeting...
we didn't go for the original and usual stuff (movies) as we do...

yesh...
we tried something else...
we went to bowl and pool today...
timing to meet was at 4pm but eugene and matthew was late...
so me and daren went to superbowl to wait...
and our eyes were greeted by primary school kids...
i think they were holding some practices or matches...
well,don't underestimate them... they looked professional...
personally,this should be the first time i enter the bowling alley...
and my first bowl was quite alright...
not really that good also...
have lots of fun at bowling...
i showed the guys some beautiful pose too...
hahas,so funny can.?.
i was like asking all of them to try out...
but none did...

and then...
we went upstairs for some pool session...
and guess what.?.
i done this thing quick and nice...
daren and matthew even said i picked this pool thing up fast...
thanks guys...
too bad is that eugene left us quite like half way of the game...

after that we went for some soya bean drink and bean curd as well...
thanks matthew for introducing it...

minutes later,we bid bye bye and we head our separate ways with daren following me...
and we ate at Hougang Mall...
soon we left and head home... great day guys...
hope to spend more with your soon...
as in real soon...

Group picture...
Eugene,Matthew,Daren & Me (From Left to Right)...
ps:look up my facebook for more photos...
the guys was playing with my camera...
hahas...
byes...

2009-09-16T23:59:00.002+08:00

Alone...

today i heard a bad news,i guess.?.
yup and im totally speechless...
and what could i say...
haiz...
well i think it didn't happened just like this...
and i would like to find out what happened first...
don't sentence me just like this...
and guess im all alone...

anyways joined Daren,Eugene and Matthew for some table tennis game...
nice game after all...
playing from space tennis (created by Matthew and named by Me) to the actual one...
hahas...
was quite tired...
have fun with your guys around...
play again never mind...
and remember hor...
your arhz go out never ask me...
i will remember de...

oh ya,anyways...
i guess i have solve the problems half way and i still want to know the background story...
let me know if any of your know...
oh ya,i guess that that is for all...
byes then...
smiles...

2009-09-15T23:59:00.002+08:00

Footprints of sadness...

yup...
mistakes are made...
regrets starts to hit me...
and then all there are left was the traces of it...
why.?.
and why.?.
could someone answer me...
it cause me so much misery and what could i do...
things have gone too far and it is too late to save it...
trust is something which i have locked inside of me...
i dare not anyhow react to the word trust...
haiz...
afraid to do anything...
and i have lose my way just to find myself back...
and guess what.?.
i don't sobs as it seems to be a weakness...
force to fake the fake me...
my hearts broke times every time i think of it...
im not sure of what to do...
or what can i do...
maybe i should never lend my trust and hopes on you...
im walking on the side alone...
and maybe i should give up and let it go...
can time really heal me.?.
maybe i should also forget you...
well...
byes then...
sobs...
ps,because of you...

2009-09-14T23:59:00.002+08:00

Someone is sad...

well...
i heard that someone is sad and why leh.?.
maybe i have guessed correctly...
or maybe i guessed it wrongly then...
anyways...
i just have to say...
no point in remembering all those bad times...
although it isn't easy to forget...
but i know the level of difficulty is as high as the max level of your game...
which it seems so impossible...
haiz...
i also not very sure how should i phrase it...
look who is talking then.?.
oh ya...
you could always smiles...
and smiles...
and smiles more...
maybe it could help you...
and if you got anything,look me up...
i will try my very best to help you...
hahas,that is it...
byes...

2009-09-13T23:59:00.002+08:00

BXB Activity at Sentosa...

wohoo...
i have been counting down to today...
as today,we will be visiting sentosa...
ehhh,not with my friends...
but with the BXB group peoples...
hahas...

okays...
lets begin the journey...
meet at 8am at Hougang Station...
waaa...
so early lor...
i wake up very early today...
still very sleepy...
and then i wore a cap as im still sleepy...
(yawn)...

then we waited for awhile...
and soon we boarded the train all the way down to HarbourFront Station...
on the way to HarbourFront Station...
i tried to not attract too much attentions as we are asked to move to the back of the cabin...
as instructed by the JDYs...
haiz...
in the end,there are still packed together...
therefore the spotlights are shined on us...
anyways,never mind...
stations pass stations...
we reached HarbourFront Station...

soon,we hurried up the escalators and hit the top floor and we waited patiently for our tickets and our grouping...
hahas...
my group at first wasn't that ok...
i mean your know me lar...
i not very good in taking care of others...
hahas...
then we passed the ticketing machine and head for the Sentosa Express...
went into the train and i start playing...
so childish right.?.
and thus the train moved and i started something...
then all of them laugh...
hahas...
nice to hear laughter...

tink,tink,tink...
and later we reached the Beach Station and we exited it...
rushed down the escalators and waited for the rest...
and then we hopped onto the tram that bring us to Tanjong Beach...
oh ya,i make everyone laugh again...
and soon we packed our stuffs and head down...
i also place my items down and took off my slippers...
waaa,so hot...
the sand lar...
and then we moved to my groups and my group is Strawberry...
sweet right.?.
and the rest are called Pineapples,Bananas and Papayas...
hahas...

later we start the first game and the "bombing" begin...
bomb here and bomb there...
and so that is our ice-breaking game...
did we break the ice then.?.
are our ices melted then.?.
hahas...

soon,we are asked to create cheers but in the end we went dancing...
hoorays...
and then we soon started the relay race...
hey are the sequence...
firstly,we have to do the legged race...
and skip 15 times on a skipping rope...
secondly,we have to move the biscuit from our face to our mouth without using our hands but only facial expressions...
then we have to turned 7 rounds on the umbrellas and we have to passed under the rope...
waaa,i do leopard crawl leh...
thirdly,we are supposed to carry the water bags and play Hei Bai Ceh...
and if we lost,we have to restart...
luckily my team was the first...
great work team...

rested for a while later after all the teams completed the game...
and then we begin the next segment which was the dodgeball and table soccer (ended up into beach soccer)...
and so our first opponent is the Pineapples...
and we played soccer first...
we trashed them...
wooo...
my team is so strong...
and so we also trashed the Bananas also in soccer...
wasted sia,we didn't managed to play dodgeball...
hahas...
shouted twice Jiayous...

and next up is lunch...
well i skip it for awhile as i walked a great distance to get soft drinks...
hahas...
everyone is having a great lunch,i guess.?.
soon,lunch is over and we continue with the games...

finally,it is the best part to get wet...
it is the bombing of water bags...
hahas...
area cleaning was next...
we clear up everything then...
and at the end of it everyone is wet and then soon they all go change...
so i sat at the beach eating...
there are many leftovers...
hahas...
and im so full,can.?.
took some unglam photos also...
but was deleted...
haiz...
wasted...

soon we packed up everything and head back the way we came...
and all the back to the tram down to Sentosa Express and HarbourFront Station and finally Hougang Station...
oh ya,have a long chat with someone...
so many secrets...
but i think i should shhh...
then once we reached Hougang Station,we bid goodbye to all and i went to buy doughnuts...
and then went home and took a rest...
as tonight there is an event at my home i quickly prepared myself...

and guess what.?.
i meet the someone already...
hahas...
yesh...
and that is all for the day...
byes byes...
oh ya...
ps,pissed someone off and took so jump shots also...
hahas...
im also tanned as well...
byes...
smiles...

2009-09-12T23:59:00.000+08:00

Never meet someone...

yesh...
today i never meet someone...
saturday seems to be the day that i would slack one...
but tomorrow there will be an activity hold by bxb...
so i have to arrange some of my stuffs...

arghz...
although tomorrow will be an exciting day...
but today seems so wrong...
maybe i didn't meet the someone...
seems like something is just not right...
i also don't know how to explain...
haiz...
don't be so sad also...
that is all i have to say...
but no worries,will meet soon de...
smiles...

2009-09-11T23:59:00.001+08:00

Boring...

im so bored...
well did nothing for this 2 days...
yup,that is all...
maybe i have forgot any details...
but never mind...
byes for now...
smiles...

2009-09-09T23:59:00.000+08:00

Daren's Doreamon...

yesh...
im so bored today...
so sleepy,can.?.

anyways,went out with daren today...
so we meet at around 2.30pm and we head down to amk hub...
daren went to look for his doreamon design shirt...
i was also curious also...
hahas...

had lunch also...
someone still say don't want to eat and then still eat...
hahas...
i mean daren lar...
actually he ate already...
then i tempt him to eat again...
hahas,so funny...

yup,we clear the whole hub in less than 1 hour and i say this very nice earphone and guess what.?.
it is in PINK.!.
hahas...
i want it a lot...
argh...
didn't bring enough cash that day...
wasted...
never mind,next time i saw it...
it will be mine...

okok,that is all about the day...
psss...
someone give me a gift today...
who.?.
who huh.?.
smiles...

2009-09-08T23:59:00.000+08:00

Change Handphone...

yesh...
like finally...
i changed my handphone...
actually my that Sony Ericsson phone was spoiled for some times and ya...
i was unwillingly to repair it...
so i have decided to change a new one...
hahas...
hoorays...
i now got my new handphone...
and im so happy...
yesh...
someone have already known that and have saw it already...
hahas...
who arhz.?.
now,i no need to worry about the contacts and other problems already...
blessed me...
smiles...

2009-09-07T23:59:00.000+08:00

Study Session Gone Upside Down...

yesh...
had some study session at the centre...
yup...
Esther and her friends are heading towards the centre to study...
so in boredom,i tagged along...
hahas...

well,so we meet at 11.30am and head towards Hougang Mall for lunch...
and at mid way,we heard news that some of them will be late...
aiyos,as expected...
the gathering time is 12 noon...
anyways,we hurried to lunch...
oh ya,before that we play a little hide and seek...
hahas...

then after lunch...
we head down to study then...
as the members started to gather...
we bid goodbye to another one member...
as she have stuffs to attend too...
okays,continue with the studies then...

and in the bored mood...
we snapped photos...
hahas,that is cool...
wait,i need to apologise to that someone for anyhow taking candid photos...
so sorry...
yup,after that we went to take a break and play at the playground...
they were challenging on the highest range you could reach in a swing...
hahas,not bad i will say...

thus,we then pack our bags and disperse...
we head back to our own homes then...

anyways,in conclusion...
the study session is fun...
hope to have more of this...
and wish that im able to join more...
smiles...

2009-09-06T23:59:00.002+08:00

Someone Don't Believe Me...

why.?.
could you tell me why.?.
why do you still doubt me.?.
could i ask for your trust.?.
huh.?.
could i.?.
just believe me can.?.
i will take the RIGHT path...
remember the word i told you.?.
trust me and i will take actions of what i said...

just try believe me can.?.
or just believe in your choices then,huh.?.
anyways...
i hope you can... ... ...
and...
don't doubt of what i say...
and never say i will take the other path beside the RIGHT path...
and carry on smiling...
smiles...
love ya...
byes...

2009-09-05T23:59:00.002+08:00

HEARTS

yesh...
and with many hearts...
there is a little secrets kept between of us...
anyways...
shall we keep it like this.?.
the hearts as one...
should we.?.
i post this questions to you then...
smiles...
♥
♥
♥
♥
♥
♥
♥
♥
♥
♥
♥
♥
♥
♥
♥
♥
♥
♥
♥
♥
♥
♥
♥
... ... ...

2009-09-04T23:59:00.002+08:00

I Hate That Guy...

ARGHZ...
im very pissed off with this guy...
anyways,i don't want to say his name...
as speaking of his name make me even mad...
how could such guy exist.?.
aiyos...
dislike him to the very max...

waaa...
i don't like him...
I Don't Like Him...
I DON'T LIKE HIM...

remember this...
i don't like him...
he dare to disturb someone which of great importance to me...
we shall see then...
he better know his limits...
im serious...

hmph...
i will remember his name de...
(ANGRY !!!)

2009-09-03T23:59:00.003+08:00

My Pink Butterfly Is Gone...

yup,today isn't a great day...
haiz...
i lost yet another important thing...
first is the yellow butterfly and now the pink one also...
waaa...
why.?.
why am i so careless.?.
huh.?.
i had enough of this...
please don't let me lost another thing which hold great meaning to me...
*sobs*...
can't stand it...
i lost it all...
all the butterflies...
aiyos...
i will thus use another way to replaces it...
or maybe it isn't replaceable...
haiz...
prayed and blessed it...
anyways,im xxxxx...
very xxxxx...
to the person who gave it to me...
arghz...
byes then...

2009-09-02T23:59:00.001+08:00

Cup Walker...

i head up Sengkang area like twice and ya i purchase some Cup Walker drinks for someone...
hahas,i also waited for someone...
yup and that is all...

anyways the drinks is nice...
but at the time,i was too full...
hahas...
i had a bloated stomach at then...
have 2 meals for lunch...
so full,can.?.

well,next time i don't want to eat so full already...
hahas,smiles...

2009-09-01T23:59:00.001+08:00

Dine with Esther's Family...

i went to play badminton with Esther and her family at punggol park today...
and i took a short run around there too...
and i did some pull up also...
omg,the bar was so high...
and i was also shocked at the height...
then Esther said i couldn't reached it...
but in the end,i did it...
wohoo...
hahas...

and after that,we went to the nearby Kopitiam and they have their dinner...
thanks uncle and auntie...
they treated me to breads and drinks...
thanks you all...
erm,i was abit ma lu also...
yup,so sorry to disturb your the family day...
ehhh,very sorry then...
anyways,we walked back and have some ice-cream and snacks...
thanks again uncle and auntie...
then we bid goodbye as we reached their block...
hahas,it was also a very funny experience...
anyways,this is all...
hahas,bye bye...
smiles...

2009-08-31T23:59:00.003+08:00

Teachers Day Celebration...

today we celebrated teacher day...
and i woke up early to head to school...
as choir will be performing for it...
so i went ahead to assist them...

well,their voices weren't that smooth at all...
and they really don't sound that good...
but,phew luckily they pulled it off...
they did well,ok.?.

and guess what.?.
Mr Ng is back...
and he saw us waved at him...
and after the celebration,we have a chat with him...
good to see him again...
hahas...

but was kind of sad...
Mr Lee was on Medical leave...
hope that he get well soon...
so we didn't manage to meet Mr Lee...
was kind of disappointed...
haiz...

anyways,never mind...
will see him around...
hahas...
HAPPY TEACHER DAY...
smiles...

2009-08-30T23:59:00.003+08:00

Studies and it Rain...

yup,i have been studying a lot...
hahas...
yesh i study with Esther,Patricia and Angie again...

and guess what.?.
it rains...
wohoo,i just love/hate the rain...
should i say it as a blessing or not.?.
the rain drops just tell how much i want to forgot everything...
every rain drop shows the moment and perseverance to forget everything...
forget,Forget,FORGET...
why.?.
why just i can't forget everything.?.
just let me forget it,can.?.
that song just make me remember you again...
it seriously tell me to let you go...
but i just can't...
ARGHZ...

well,i don't wish to speak further...
*sobs*...
rain drops arhz...
haiz...
anyways...
i shall keep it to myself then...
shhh...

2009-08-29T23:59:00.002+08:00

CHIJ SJC Carnival...

yes,i have been waiting for this day as i count down at my calender...
i woke up very early today...
and as quickly i could,i went to prepare myself for the day...
and soon i meet up with Esther,Shi hui and Patricia...
then we head down SJC on a bus...

minutes later,we reached SJC and we soon alighted the bus...
as we walked into the school,i was greeted by the environment of it...
and then,we rushed towards Esther's class stall to deliver the muffins...
hahas,nice one...

soon as she left the muffins,we went on a tour around the school...
and guess what.?.
i been into the 2 hunted houses...
hahas,no bad i would say...
the pitch darkness was a great point to take note...
hahas...
lots of screaming were heard inside the room...
yup...
i was shocked and stunned by it,hahas...

and soon,we went for the foods and drinks...
i ate a muffin,candy floss and some drinks...
oh ya,i saw my classmates and friends as well...
hahas...

and as finally,everything come to an end and that is all for the day...
bye bye...
smiles...
i enjoyed the day a lot...
hope to attend some more of it another time...
yup,smiles...

2009-08-28T23:59:00.005+08:00

Can't wait for tomorrow...

yesh,i seriously can't wait for tomorrow...
as i was invited to join them in attending a carnival hold by CHIJ SJC...
hooray...
yup,lets pray that everything goes smooth...
and as i have been to other schools carnival...
so i will be heading towards tomorrow carnival with lot of hopes for it...
hahas...
smiles...
that is all...

and ya,i purchase quite a lot of tickets...
hope i could spend all...
a lot of $$$...
hahas...

2009-08-27T23:59:00.003+08:00

Meet Up with the guys...

school was normal...
oh ya...
yup,today meet up with Daren,Eugene and Matthew for lunch...
anyways we have a delicious meal and after that we wanted to go back for choir practice...
due to the rain,we got soaked even before we enter the school...
was so pissed about it...
then we were stopped at the guard post due to the guards thinking that the guys were back to look for teachers...
so we waited quite some time there...
as i have no choice,i went to look for help...
and quickly,the guys sign in and we head up to look at the choir practice...
today practice wasn't that smooth...
the conductor got pissed off with them...
he then left...
aiyos...
then they went down to sing at the D&T block...
well...
and soon i left...
buck up juniors...
that is all...

oh ya,Happy Birthday Thiru...
all the best then...
byes...

2009-08-26T23:59:00.001+08:00

Run Here & Run There Again...

well,i don't want to speak on any other points...
but only the point that i took a run at Compass Point...
i really have no choice...
it was a tough decision...
haiz...
maybe i should regrets this...

im so sorry to whoever and everybody that i have done everything wrongly...
maybe it is due to my careless plans that i shouldn't have even carry out...
arghz...
i seems to trouble others rather than helping them...
regrets peoples...
and that is all i could say...

shall not say anything already...
bye bye...

2009-08-24T23:59:00.003+08:00

BREAK GAN...

today is monday...
and ya,the blues hit me...
im so tired...
omg early in the morning and im already yawned like don't know how many times already...
(yawning - in - process)...
hahas...

anyways,school was normal...
everything was ok,i guess...
yup...
then i receive a sms...
and i was totally shock by it...
the message states that she want to break gans with me...
stunned by the message,i was speechless...
haiz...
i can't believe it...

i even told her my sad past of my another gans...
and yet she said this to me...
i was totally heart broken...
anyways i guess i have to let go then...
i shan't cling on it...
and i will let everything takes it courses then...
it makes no point when i hold it down...
i shall let it be free then...
opening my hands to let it fly...
please then fly away and don't look back...
thanks then...
bye then...

haiz...
im totally speechless now...
i don't know what to do or how should i act...
byes...
*sobs*...

2009-08-21T23:59:00.000+08:00

Yet another day...

yesh,today there is school...
and guess what.?.
today is friday...
wohoo...

anyways,cant recalled much...
only remember meeting Esther,Michelle and Shi hui...
yup...
that is it...
smiles...

2009-08-20T23:59:00.005+08:00

Studying at Compass Point...

yup,i went studying at Compass Point again...
yesh,again...
hahas...

well i would want to wish Mr Pang,a Happy Birthday...
hahas,we celebrated his birthday in class...
wohoo...
nice celebration...
smiles...
hahas...