Sobs-In-Process...

yup...
the word sobs really have been shouting out loud...
and dont bother looking at someone sobs-ing...
some of us can look at it...
but some others just cant stand any of this...
haiz...
maybe i should say that i didnt manage to avoid the scene...
im the one to be blame for all of this...
if i reacted the other way,i might have save the scene from happening...
my failure to fulfill what i have promise have been broken...
is it true that promises are mend to be broken and secrets are mend to be told.?.
or should it be the other way around.?.
promises are mend to be kept and secrets are mend to be hidden.?.
all in all,i will uphold what im suppose to do...
and clear my past...
the uncleared me...
hidden deep inside of me...
will it be awaken or will it be forever sleeping then.?.
me and me then...
byes...

GUILTY-NESS is calling out for me...

today i have done something which i didn't think of what might happened...
haiz...
so sorry...
i didn't expect the outcome...
and it definitely isn't what i want...
i make someone sobs in front of me...
directly in front of me...
i feel so bad...
and the guilt is hunting me down...
im so scare can.?.
what can i do to pay back...
tell me,ok.?.
anything i could do or say.?.
don't sobs...
just don't sobs...
your tears are like diamonds...
my hearts will break...

Study,study,study...

yup...
peoples out there...
im studying hard...
i have been attending the night study programs...
hahas...
kind of fun...
oh ya...
today have chips and drinks...
hahas...
i ate 5 packets of oreo biscuits...
i think after all this programs,i have to do some exercises...
just kidding only...
anyways,that is all...
byes...
back to study...

为什么.?.

每当我和你在一起的时候,我的笑容总是会挂在我的脸上...
在当时...
我好想把我的脚步放慢,把时间顿时停下来...
连我们的旋律都变得是一样的,空气都变得更清晰更爽朗...
一阵一阵的风便打在我的那从不放下的笑容...
那时的我便没有那么多考虑或烦恼...
而在那时,笑容总是会存在...

当是...
不知从哪天开始,我的笑容变得越来越少...
越来越少...
而到现在,可能都已没了...
或许是从那天我们各走我们该走的路时...
在你转身以后,我便开始后悔...
后悔当初为什么我不多好好的珍惜你,不好好的把你的手拉近...

而...
今天的我的记忆全部都是你...
满满的回忆都有你的痕迹...
我该怎么做.?.
你可否能告诉我.?.
我没犯下什么罪...
而你也没给过我机会...
我懂了...
你没给我机会是因为你要我放弃...
要我彻底的放弃...
你也不希望我越陷越深...
也不希望我掉下无底洞...
而从此爬不起来...
可是你有没有想过我要的不是你对我的判决...
我要的是 . . . . . .

可是...
现在说着已没有用了，事实已成了定局...
我还能做什么呢.?.
i have already lost the smiles that was once alive...
and it might not even return anymore...
just hope that the smiles will come back to me...
我希望的就是以上的笑容...
失望的我便在寻找一道光线...
the imperfect me looking for a way out...

hated my damned life...
don't wish to say anymore...
why must all this fall on me...
i am just me...
not someone who could take everything...
have anyone ever wonder the smiles i put on is fake.?.
the jokes i made are merely trying to cover my sadness.?.
haiz...
anyways...
pissed off...
don't know what to do or even say...
misleading the me inside of me...

Amazing...

guess what people.?.
today have officially marks the day that i studies the longest...
wohoo...
a break through...
never once i believe i could have done it...
i would like to thanks all and...
blah...
blah...
blah...
thanks you...
thanks you...
thanks you...
and i will continue this amazing records...
hahas...
all the best for 'O's peoples...

Gifts & Posters...

yesh...
actually today would be yet another study day...
but guess what.?.
today there is this lesson on CPR...
so after assembly we head toward the indoor sport hall and wait for the course to start...
well,im looking forward to today...
as i planned to study today...
hear properly...
i...
me...
studying leh.!.
hahas...

soon the instructors greeted us and start the lesson...
then we went on with what he taught us...
after that we head back to our class with our CPR kits...
a box of a few items...

and once we reached our homeroom...
Mr Pang came in and give each of us a bar of chocolate...
thanks Mr Pang...
wait...
wait...
wait...
and there is also this exclusive 5A1 2009 poster given to each and everyone of us...
hahas...
5A1...
yeah,horray...
thanks once again...
will post the picture soon...

and lessons after lessons...
soon,it was math...
then miss ong got a shock...
hahas...
so funny...
anyways,time to study already...

after school,went to Hougang Mall for lunch and head back to school for the remedial...
ended the remedial at 4.30pm and i head home...
went home to study...
study,study,study...
that is all...
byes...

GIVE HER FREEDOM...

why.?.
why must another one comes.?.
once pass her and yet another one enter...
just as she was still recovering from the history...
the one that hurt her deep...
so deep that it have yet to recover...
arghz...
don't hurt her anymore...

so...
tell me then.?.
don't come to cause more troubles for her,can.?.
she have nothing left now...
and your now wish to take away her last hope...
her very last hope.?.

and that is...
FREEDOM...

just how many of us could really be free.?.
your are just adding on to a mental weight called stress...
if a heavy weight is added and it couldn't hold on anymore,it will snap...
and at the time,who just who could help then.?.
at the point of time,no matter what your do can solve the problems then...
don't wait till then...

and guess what.?.
i just couldn't help but stare blankly at every incidents that passes...
what could i do then...
im just wondering...
just wondering...
could i have lend my hand and pull her up...
just to save her from this misery...

yesh...
and this is what im going to do...
just to help...
to let her be able to see the clear blue sky and fly freely...
as high as the wind could take her...
and im coming for YOU.!.
byes...

BOREDOM...

i have been rotting for the past 3 days...
nothing came up...
except for one thing....
i have been wondering about it...
ya...
need to find a solution soon...
as in very soon...
or else thing might get out of hand...
and guess it...
i will...
just wait and see...
...
...
...

Bowl & Pool...

yup...
meet up with the guys again...
and today isn't just any other meeting...
we didn't go for the original and usual stuff (movies) as we do...

yesh...
we tried something else...
we went to bowl and pool today...
timing to meet was at 4pm but eugene and matthew was late...
so me and daren went to superbowl to wait...
and our eyes were greeted by primary school kids...
i think they were holding some practices or matches...
well,don't underestimate them... they looked professional...
personally,this should be the first time i enter the bowling alley...
and my first bowl was quite alright...
not really that good also...
have lots of fun at bowling...
i showed the guys some beautiful pose too...
hahas,so funny can.?.
i was like asking all of them to try out...
but none did...

and then...
we went upstairs for some pool session...
and guess what.?.
i done this thing quick and nice...
daren and matthew even said i picked this pool thing up fast...
thanks guys...
too bad is that eugene left us quite like half way of the game...

after that we went for some soya bean drink and bean curd as well...
thanks matthew for introducing it...

minutes later,we bid bye bye and we head our separate ways with daren following me...
and we ate at Hougang Mall...
soon we left and head home... great day guys...
hope to spend more with your soon...
as in real soon...



Group picture...
Eugene,Matthew,Daren & Me (From Left to Right)...
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the guys was playing with my camera...
hahas...
byes...

Alone...

today i heard a bad news,i guess.?.
yup and im totally speechless...
and what could i say...
haiz...
well i think it didn't happened just like this...
and i would like to find out what happened first...
don't sentence me just like this...
and guess im all alone...

anyways joined Daren,Eugene and Matthew for some table tennis game...
nice game after all...
playing from space tennis (created by Matthew and named by Me) to the actual one...
hahas...
was quite tired...
have fun with your guys around...
play again never mind...
and remember hor...
your arhz go out never ask me...
i will remember de...

oh ya,anyways...
i guess i have solve the problems half way and i still want to know the background story...
let me know if any of your know...
oh ya,i guess that that is for all...
byes then...
smiles...

Footprints of sadness...

yup...
mistakes are made...
regrets starts to hit me...
and then all there are left was the traces of it...
why.?.
and why.?.
could someone answer me...
it cause me so much misery and what could i do...
things have gone too far and it is too late to save it...
trust is something which i have locked inside of me...
i dare not anyhow react to the word trust...
haiz...
afraid to do anything...
and i have lose my way just to find myself back...
and guess what.?.
i don't sobs as it seems to be a weakness...
force to fake the fake me...
my hearts broke times every time i think of it...
im not sure of what to do...
or what can i do...
maybe i should never lend my trust and hopes on you...
im walking on the side alone...
and maybe i should give up and let it go...
can time really heal me.?.
maybe i should also forget you...
well...
byes then...
sobs...
ps,because of you...

Someone is sad...

well...
i heard that someone is sad and why leh.?.
maybe i have guessed correctly...
or maybe i guessed it wrongly then...
anyways...
i just have to say...
no point in remembering all those bad times...
although it isn't easy to forget...
but i know the level of difficulty is as high as the max level of your game...
which it seems so impossible...
haiz...
i also not very sure how should i phrase it...
look who is talking then.?.
oh ya...
you could always smiles...
and smiles...
and smiles more...
maybe it could help you...
and if you got anything,look me up...
i will try my very best to help you...
hahas,that is it...
byes...

BXB Activity at Sentosa...

wohoo...
i have been counting down to today...
as today,we will be visiting sentosa...
ehhh,not with my friends...
but with the BXB group peoples...
hahas...

okays...
lets begin the journey...
meet at 8am at Hougang Station...
waaa...
so early lor...
i wake up very early today...
still very sleepy...
and then i wore a cap as im still sleepy...
(yawn)...

then we waited for awhile...
and soon we boarded the train all the way down to HarbourFront Station...
on the way to HarbourFront Station...
i tried to not attract too much attentions as we are asked to move to the back of the cabin...
as instructed by the JDYs...
haiz...
in the end,there are still packed together...
therefore the spotlights are shined on us...
anyways,never mind...
stations pass stations...
we reached HarbourFront Station...

soon,we hurried up the escalators and hit the top floor and we waited patiently for our tickets and our grouping...
hahas...
my group at first wasn't that ok...
i mean your know me lar...
i not very good in taking care of others...
hahas...
then we passed the ticketing machine and head for the Sentosa Express...
went into the train and i start playing...
so childish right.?.
and thus the train moved and i started something...
then all of them laugh...
hahas...
nice to hear laughter...

tink,tink,tink...
and later we reached the Beach Station and we exited it...
rushed down the escalators and waited for the rest...
and then we hopped onto the tram that bring us to Tanjong Beach...
oh ya,i make everyone laugh again...
and soon we packed our stuffs and head down...
i also place my items down and took off my slippers...
waaa,so hot...
the sand lar...
and then we moved to my groups and my group is Strawberry...
sweet right.?.
and the rest are called Pineapples,Bananas and Papayas...
hahas...

later we start the first game and the "bombing" begin...
bomb here and bomb there...
and so that is our ice-breaking game...
did we break the ice then.?.
are our ices melted then.?.
hahas...

soon,we are asked to create cheers but in the end we went dancing...
hoorays...
and then we soon started the relay race...
hey are the sequence...
firstly,we have to do the legged race...
and skip 15 times on a skipping rope...
secondly,we have to move the biscuit from our face to our mouth without using our hands but only facial expressions...
then we have to turned 7 rounds on the umbrellas and we have to passed under the rope...
waaa,i do leopard crawl leh...
thirdly,we are supposed to carry the water bags and play Hei Bai Ceh...
and if we lost,we have to restart...
luckily my team was the first...
great work team...

rested for a while later after all the teams completed the game...
and then we begin the next segment which was the dodgeball and table soccer (ended up into beach soccer)...
and so our first opponent is the Pineapples...
and we played soccer first...
we trashed them...
wooo...
my team is so strong...
and so we also trashed the Bananas also in soccer...
wasted sia,we didn't managed to play dodgeball...
hahas...
shouted twice Jiayous...

and next up is lunch...
well i skip it for awhile as i walked a great distance to get soft drinks...
hahas...
everyone is having a great lunch,i guess.?.
soon,lunch is over and we continue with the games...

finally,it is the best part to get wet...
it is the bombing of water bags...
hahas...
area cleaning was next...
we clear up everything then...
and at the end of it everyone is wet and then soon they all go change...
so i sat at the beach eating...
there are many leftovers...
hahas...
and im so full,can.?.
took some unglam photos also...
but was deleted...
haiz...
wasted...

soon we packed up everything and head back the way we came...
and all the back to the tram down to Sentosa Express and HarbourFront Station and finally Hougang Station...
oh ya,have a long chat with someone...
so many secrets...
but i think i should shhh...
then once we reached Hougang Station,we bid goodbye to all and i went to buy doughnuts...
and then went home and took a rest...
as tonight there is an event at my home i quickly prepared myself...

and guess what.?.
i meet the someone already...
hahas...
yesh...
and that is all for the day...
byes byes...
oh ya...
ps,pissed someone off and took so jump shots also...
hahas...
im also tanned as well...
byes...
smiles...

Never meet someone...

yesh...
today i never meet someone...
saturday seems to be the day that i would slack one...
but tomorrow there will be an activity hold by bxb...
so i have to arrange some of my stuffs...

arghz...
although tomorrow will be an exciting day...
but today seems so wrong...
maybe i didn't meet the someone...
seems like something is just not right...
i also don't know how to explain...
haiz...
don't be so sad also...
that is all i have to say...
but no worries,will meet soon de...
smiles...

Boring...

im so bored...
well did nothing for this 2 days...
yup,that is all...
maybe i have forgot any details...
but never mind...
byes for now...
smiles...

Daren's Doreamon...

yesh...
im so bored today...
so sleepy,can.?.

anyways,went out with daren today...
so we meet at around 2.30pm and we head down to amk hub...
daren went to look for his doreamon design shirt...
i was also curious also...
hahas...

had lunch also...
someone still say don't want to eat and then still eat...
hahas...
i mean daren lar...
actually he ate already...
then i tempt him to eat again...
hahas,so funny...

yup,we clear the whole hub in less than 1 hour and i say this very nice earphone and guess what.?.
it is in PINK.!.
hahas...
i want it a lot...
argh...
didn't bring enough cash that day...
wasted...
never mind,next time i saw it...
it will be mine...

okok,that is all about the day...
psss...
someone give me a gift today...
who.?.
who huh.?.
smiles...

Change Handphone...

yesh...
like finally...
i changed my handphone...
actually my that Sony Ericsson phone was spoiled for some times and ya...
i was unwillingly to repair it...
so i have decided to change a new one...
hahas...
hoorays...
i now got my new handphone...
and im so happy...
yesh...
someone have already known that and have saw it already...
hahas...
who arhz.?.
now,i no need to worry about the contacts and other problems already...
blessed me...
smiles...

Study Session Gone Upside Down...

yesh...
had some study session at the centre...
yup...
Esther and her friends are heading towards the centre to study...
so in boredom,i tagged along...
hahas...

well,so we meet at 11.30am and head towards Hougang Mall for lunch...
and at mid way,we heard news that some of them will be late...
aiyos,as expected...
the gathering time is 12 noon...
anyways,we hurried to lunch...
oh ya,before that we play a little hide and seek...
hahas...

then after lunch...
we head down to study then...
as the members started to gather...
we bid goodbye to another one member...
as she have stuffs to attend too...
okays,continue with the studies then...

and in the bored mood...
we snapped photos...
hahas,that is cool...
wait,i need to apologise to that someone for anyhow taking candid photos...
so sorry...
yup,after that we went to take a break and play at the playground...
they were challenging on the highest range you could reach in a swing...
hahas,not bad i will say...

thus,we then pack our bags and disperse...
we head back to our own homes then...

anyways,in conclusion...
the study session is fun...
hope to have more of this...
and wish that im able to join more...
smiles...

Someone Don't Believe Me...

why.?.
could you tell me why.?.
why do you still doubt me.?.
could i ask for your trust.?.
huh.?.
could i.?.
just believe me can.?.
i will take the RIGHT path...
remember the word i told you.?.
trust me and i will take actions of what i said...

just try believe me can.?.
or just believe in your choices then,huh.?.
anyways...
i hope you can... ... ...
and...
don't doubt of what i say...
and never say i will take the other path beside the RIGHT path...
and carry on smiling...
smiles...
love ya...
byes...

HEARTS

yesh...
and with many hearts...
there is a little secrets kept between of us...
anyways...
shall we keep it like this.?.
the hearts as one...
should we.?.
i post this questions to you then...
smiles...
♥
♥
♥
♥
♥
♥
♥
♥
♥
♥
♥
♥
♥
♥
♥
♥
♥
♥
♥
♥
♥
♥
♥
... ... ...

I Hate That Guy...

ARGHZ...
im very pissed off with this guy...
anyways,i don't want to say his name...
as speaking of his name make me even mad...
how could such guy exist.?.
aiyos...
dislike him to the very max...

waaa...
i don't like him...
I Don't Like Him...
I DON'T LIKE HIM...

remember this...
i don't like him...
he dare to disturb someone which of great importance to me...
we shall see then...
he better know his limits...
im serious...

hmph...
i will remember his name de...
(ANGRY !!!)

My Pink Butterfly Is Gone...

yup,today isn't a great day...
haiz...
i lost yet another important thing...
first is the yellow butterfly and now the pink one also...
waaa...
why.?.
why am i so careless.?.
huh.?.
i had enough of this...
please don't let me lost another thing which hold great meaning to me...
*sobs*...
can't stand it...
i lost it all...
all the butterflies...
aiyos...
i will thus use another way to replaces it...
or maybe it isn't replaceable...
haiz...
prayed and blessed it...
anyways,im xxxxx...
very xxxxx...
to the person who gave it to me...
arghz...
byes then...

Cup Walker...

i head up Sengkang area like twice and ya i purchase some Cup Walker drinks for someone...
hahas,i also waited for someone...
yup and that is all...

anyways the drinks is nice...
but at the time,i was too full...
hahas...
i had a bloated stomach at then...
have 2 meals for lunch...
so full,can.?.

well,next time i don't want to eat so full already...
hahas,smiles...

Dine with Esther's Family...

i went to play badminton with Esther and her family at punggol park today...
and i took a short run around there too...
and i did some pull up also...
omg,the bar was so high...
and i was also shocked at the height...
then Esther said i couldn't reached it...
but in the end,i did it...
wohoo...
hahas...

and after that,we went to the nearby Kopitiam and they have their dinner...
thanks uncle and auntie...
they treated me to breads and drinks...
thanks you all...
erm,i was abit ma lu also...
yup,so sorry to disturb your the family day...
ehhh,very sorry then...
anyways,we walked back and have some ice-cream and snacks...
thanks again uncle and auntie...
then we bid goodbye as we reached their block...
hahas,it was also a very funny experience...
anyways,this is all...
hahas,bye bye...
smiles...

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