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Sunday, April 25, 2010
BXB.?.
today wasn't a good day at all...
many things happened and ya this is how it goes...
last night,i predicted that my day wasn't going to be that good today...
and guess what.?.
i'm totally correct...
i haven't had much sleep at all...
haiz...
wake up early in the morning with half of me awake...
feeling tired,i lie down again...
as soon as i woke up,it was already 8.40am...
then i hurried to shower as i'm suppose to be ready by 9am sharp...
but usually,i'm always late...
hahas...
today was quite a "special" day,as the late comers like Lan xin,Eden & Jia sheng came early and Hui xian also did turn up today...
wooo...
at around 9am plus,the jiao dao yuans (jdys) hold a meeting to brief on todays agenda...
then bu xi ban (bxb) started with me leading with the du jing...
after du jing,each level was appointed at different tables...
so the ban yuans (bys) started to set up their tables & chairs...
after setting up,the bys greeted the jdys and the tuition begin...
as i'm a Primary 4 jdy,i went to my table and give out work for them to do...
today they are doing composition...
as their Mid-Year Exam are coming,i decided to let them do more writing...
hopefully,this will ensure them to do better...
thing will quite usual until around 10.30am,when Jia rong was send to Chu fen jie...
he was then separated and went to one to one coaching...
then that only left with Rachael,Jing min & Jasmine...
Jia ye also went with Jia rong,but she ended up coaching Kai hong...
a few minutes passes,and i was coaching Rachael when they started to do some drawings...
then they draw me with something else...
and they keep asking for Jia ye...
they also said they don't want me to teach them...
with a deep tone,i ask again...
Me:“你们真的不要我教你们huh.?.”
They:"Arzhz (that means yes)..."
at the very next moment,i pack my stuffs and left the table...
then i went to get my handphone,wallet & Mp3 and went out...
i took the lift down and head to 7-11 and brought Peppermint Green Tea...
after i purchase my drink,i went back home...
then i head to the kitchen and drink the whole bottle in a gulp...
after that,i went to look for Chu fen jie and told her about it...
then Jia ye went out and i sat down...
soon after,Bi ting jie came and talk to Chu fen jie...
after that,i also explain the whole situation...
and i was thinking at that time and told Chu fen jie a lot of stuffs...
i quite regretted that i said too much...
and did i opened up more.?.
cause i'm not the type to tell others my problems or what i'm actually thinking...
anyways,i told her i could be out working,visiting my grandparents or even studying...
and why should i even need to be here anyways.?.
everything will still be the same even if i'm not around mah...
and i never chosen to be a jdy,it is because i'm set as a default to be one...
and i'm already kind of stress out already...
studying ITE,retaking "Os" & even need to take up CCA...
i been even looking for hobbies too and i'm quite interested in piano & guitar...
but the point is,i don't have the time for all of it...
Jia ye then ask why and what am i stressed about.?.
she even said she could prepare the work for the bys...
she then later talked to me about it again...
then later,she pass me a paper with the bys drawing,i guess they are trying to apologise...
but without seeing it,i tear the paper...
and Chu fen jie & Jia ye was shocked by what i did...
and Jia ye then said "为什么你这样.?."
i didn't replied at all...
and Kai hong was sitting beside me,trying to talk to me but i ignored...
anyways,i continue to coach Kai hong...
and soon the tutoring ended...
and before shao xiang,Bi ting jie & Jia ye talk to me again...
Bi ting jie told me she talked to the bys le,and they was just saying it because they don't how to do their work...
anyways,i wasn't really listening...
Jia lin also told me she is also facing some problems from her bys...
Lan xin then also came over and asked me what happened.?.
then Jia ye turned over and said it wasn't true and she later talked to me,asking me to stay on and teach Primary 4 and they liked me alot...
and again,i was like half listening only...
after shao xiang,we have our meals...
and after meals,we hold a meeting for the 五月份大型 Activity...
then the meeting ended with ice-cream and a little discussion...
soon,i get changed and went to sleep...
at round 6pm,i woke up and shower...
while showering,a lot of thing came popping in my head...
after that i came out...
immediately,i phoned Rachael and apologise to her of what i have done...
as she is the most innocent and guilty one in this matter...
i would also like to apologise to Chu fen jie,Bi ting jie & Jia ye for me causing so many problems...
i'm seriously very sorry about it...
and to Chu fen jie,i shouldn't have said that i could be elsewhere doing something else then be at bxb and about me defaulting as a jdy...
i'm would also like to apologise to all jian qings (jqs),jdys & bys for causing a scene...
and finally,to the Primary 4 bys...
anyways,luckily i didn't really loss my temper...
or else it won't be nice...
there are a few things that was stuck in my head...
a mere words from the bys give my confidence a wake up call...
am i really that bothered by it or was i too emotion.?.
haiz...
and am i really cut off to be a jdy.?.
when someone came to a dead end,he or she should turned around and look for a way out...
but what am i suppose to do,if i'm stucked with 1 ceiling,1 floor & 4 walls.?.
will you draw a door for me and open it for me.?.
seriously,am i endlessly searching for something that don't exist at all.?.
and i'm still wondering if i should continue to be a jdy anot...
feeling sad and down...
and most importantly disappointed...
♥ Shhh...11:11 PM
Monday, April 12, 2010
O-R-I-E-N-T-A-T-I-O-N...
today is the official first day i'm in school...
and the school was really very big...
anyways,i took 27 & change to 31 with Patricia...
haiz,the trip was long and the bus was packed...
oh ya...
maybe packed is not a good word to use...
it is practically no space at all...
waited for 4 buses of 31...
after that,i finally reached school...
orientation the begin and ended at around 4pm...
wooo,what a day...
and hopefully i can fit into the school and most importantly my class...
hahas...
♥ Shhh...11:59 PM
Saturday, April 3, 2010
5A1 Rainy Class BBQ (RC-BBQ)...
BBQ session was set at some time back and today is the day to carry out this event and meet up...
i looked up at the sky as it started to gather clouds...
and i was like think,don't tell me its going to rain.?.
and guess what.?.
it really rains...
ohhh...
that wasn't a good sign at all...
anyways,i still head towards the bbq pit with thiru...
when we reached there,we saw a few of them setting up the pit under the rain...
umbrellas was also used in the process...
hahas...
then at time goes by,many more started to arrive...
under the rain,the bbq session started...
and near the pit,there was a long pavement of shelter and that is where they took their food there and i didn't eat at all...
well,after hours pass...
we took photos and bid each other goodbyes...
below are the photo...
credit to thiru's camera & vikkash the photographer...
many thanks to the planning & logistics team...
have a great session with 5A1...
and its a pity some couldn't turn up...
and was wondering when could we meet up next then...
cause all of us will be entering into different institution and will be busy by then...
3rd April 2010,22:22 - Class 5A1...
♥ Shhh...11:59 PM
